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Look over your shoulder. They're watching you.
Tighten your stomach muscles.
Bounce your leg up and down.
Faster.
Faster.
"Are you okay?"
No.
"I'm fine."

Shut up.
Don't say anything.
Feel it, feel the thoughts melting from your mind.
Freeze.
Stare.
Laugh.
"What are you doing?"
Dying.
"Nothing."

They're behind you.
Kill them before they kill you.
"What's wrong?"
Please save me.
"Nothing."

Crazy. You're crazy.
No one wants you.
Pull the trigger.
Do it.

"Please tell me what's wrong."
You wouldn't understand.
"Nothing."

Laugh.

Smile.

Scream.

"Who are you? I don't know you anymore."
I'm a nobody.
I am Bipolar Disorder.

... "I don't know."
my personal experience with Bipolar 1 with psychotic features. <3
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Coming from another Bipolar, I see where this is coming from.
It isn't a subject touched upon as often as it could be-- It has not the terror aspect of Schizophrenia, nor the popularity of depression, and yet can be just as crippling.
There are few words to describe the waves and wash that silently plague us as we lucidly dream during the day.
There is no escape, no release, it is our day and night. Uncontrollable urges and swings for no reason.
My only problem for this piece, is that it doesn't immerse the audience in what we feel. This piece hit home for me specifically because I go through this shit every day.
But a normal person, it just feels spastic.

When I try and describe Bipolar disorder, I use colors. I wish you could incorporate colors into this piece, showing the washing nature of bipolar, because it isn't as black and white as many believe. It is hard to tell you've had a mood swing, because it's such a natural transition in your mind.
The mind-- a place of demons and dragons, of treasure and triumph, and of hatred and regret.

So yes, you did a wonderful job of description-- but what I really wanted to see out of this piece was a way for the people without it to be immersed, if only for a moment.

I know I'm asking you to do the impossible, and that this critique is a bit harsh. But, seeing as you have the gall and guts to create it, you can modify it, and I cannot wait to see the result.
What do you think?
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kelsi-laurin Featured By Owner Jul 14, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I also have bipolar disorder with psychotic features.  Thank you.
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Killuanatsume Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2014
You have talent in poetry. It's a great poem and it touched me a lot.
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b4dboy Featured By Owner Mar 9, 2014
That pretty much sums it up for me. I've only just been diagnosed but reading peoples words on here gives me hope that oneday someone will understand. Thank you x
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NarnianOpal Featured By Owner Jan 17, 2014
... my anxiety often works this way, though it shows itself in a different form. This is beautifully written, but I am so sorry for the pain that must have inspired it. Thank you for being willing (and brave) to share this.
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LadyUnkindness Featured By Owner Jun 30, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I've been reading your poems on DA. I'm quite moved. I've been told that I could have Bipolar 2 and that's bad enough. But I'm really lucky in the sense that I have an amazing support network and I've learned, for the most part, how to deal with huge, explosive emotions. Medication helps too. But then again, it does have its downsides. I'm a hugely creative person and I feel that the meds have put a stop to my creative flow (hence the DA account with barely any art).

As egocentric as it may sound, I hope you're coping as well as I am. The ups are wonderful. Use them wisely. The downs are crippling and run overwhelmingly deep. But they're beautiful too, in a way.
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TangledTabby876 Featured By Owner May 17, 2013   Digital Artist
my life in a nutshell.
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kiku----honda Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
WOW. I believe this does a better job of explaining bipolar disorder better than the the dictionary definition! :iconwowplz:
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MikkiMarie Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Aww thank you!! <3
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kiku----honda Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
:iconhappyhappyplz:
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Dickywebster Featured By Owner Feb 28, 2013
Oh I do hate it, though this puts it in a kinda nice way :)
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randomfreakygothgirl Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2013  Professional General Artist
While I am not Bipolar myself, I find that this is well-written and is a great read in general. I love it ^_^
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MikkiMarie Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Thanks so much!!
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randomfreakygothgirl Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2013  Professional General Artist
.u.
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FReaKRaveR Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
OMG! This is wonderfully done! I feel like this alot with my won bi-polar disorder.
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MikkiMarie Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you! <3
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ryolo132 Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2013
<3
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MikkiMarie Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
:)
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GorgeousBBWPrincess Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2013  Hobbyist Interface Designer
I seriously saw myself in this. Very accurate while being poetic. :)
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MikkiMarie Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Oh thank you :)
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iAmTHEMiki Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2013
Amazing. ^.^ I like it. <3
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iAmTHEMiki Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2013
Amazing. ^.^ I like it. <3
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MikkiMarie Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you!
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KAMB103 Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2013
wonderfully written, very accurate, and hits close to home because it affects me personally.
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MikkiMarie Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
i'm sorry it affects you personally :/ but i'm also glad you liked it :)
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koponya Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2013   Digital Artist
Very accurate, very nice. :)
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MikkiMarie Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you <3
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ErubescentFey Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2013
Bipolar disorder is a sensitive subject for me because two people I care much about have Bipolar Type 2. However, I like what you have written. I like how concise it is. The sentences could have been elaborate, but because it's poetic, it's not. I like that. Good job :D
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Levitating-Narwhal Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2013  Student General Artist
I don't really understand Bipolar Disorder. I hope it doesn't hold you back that much. You got support from Tennessee!
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MikkiMarie Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
It doesn't hold me back too much at all :) thank you so much!
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Levitating-Narwhal Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2013  Student General Artist
No problem! Glad to hear it. Happy saturday!
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BerriesSparrowMouse Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2013  Student Digital Artist
Wonderful insight ;-;
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MikkiMarie Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Thanks <3
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xDemonbehindthemaskX Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Oh my god..this. is so beautiful..like
You. Did s excellent job !! I hope to read more from you!
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MikkiMarie Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Thanks so much! <3
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xDemonbehindthemaskX Featured By Owner Feb 27, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
your very welcomed
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Nekothebro Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
This piece is fantastic, my friend.
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MikkiMarie Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
thanks so very very much!
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Nekothebro Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
You're welcome! :)
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Peace98 Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
wow. amazing.
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MikkiMarie Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
thanks :)
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Miyori999 Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2013   General Artist
One of my best friends is Bipolar, sometimes has thoughts like this, and every time I see her she seems a little different, but she still is the nicest person I have ever known, and I love her very much. She's even gone so far as to always there for ME, when I really needed her a year ago. I always hope that there's good thoughts in her mind as well, and I hope your thoughts are happy at times too. I still don't understand the disorder completely, but this is what I hope.
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MikkiMarie Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
From my personal experience.. I don't belong to my disorder, so yes, happy thoughts come in :) thank you!
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LiathBlack Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
thank you for putting this into words....i;ve never been able to do it
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MikkiMarie Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Well thank you <3
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Death5Daughter Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
Most of my family suffer from depression/bipolar disorder. My cousin is bipolar, my mother killed herself.
This poem brought me to tears.
The perspective is utterly and completely accurate.
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MikkiMarie Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Oh dear :( i'm so so so sorry :(
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Death5Daughter Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
No need, I was young when it happened. Thank you just the same though.
This poem is still brilliant.
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JollyGolightly Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
This is true.
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MikkiMarie Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
hehe, well i certainly tried. :)
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sage666ART Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2013  Professional Artist
love it
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