I am a victim of a shadow named fourteen And a little girl, my old best friend who turned into a demon. Fourteen human figures without a face… they attack my soul And everybody’s staring at me without an honest reason.
I am a victim of the people of the world Who only want to hurt me, and my innocent family Terrified of the ones around me, even those I love When a nightmare becomes my reality.
I can’t take a shower without peeking outside the curtain And I can’t close my eyes when I wash my hair Because I’m horrified, afraid that when I open them I’ll see somebody with a bloody face angrily standing there.
Sometimes I unlock the doors and then lock them again And to be honest, I’m not completely sure why And I can’t go upstairs at night, because what if there’s a fire? I won’t be able to make it out in time.
I am a victim of a shadow named fourteen And a little girl, my old best friend who turned into a demon. And somehow, out of all people, this disorder chose me And I’m tortured without an honest reason.
Absolutely beautiful! When I was young I was diagnosed with Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, Severe Anxiety Disorder and Tourette Syndrome, so this poem really hit home. I went to public school for the first 5 grades... It was hell. I was not paranoid about inner demons but every time my mom went out I was afraid she wouldn't come back due to a tragic accident. She had to stay in the school library when I was in class, but even then she usually had to take me home early because of extreme stress. I had panic attacks, my Tourette's caused neck problems and I cried on a daily basis. Now I have the right medication and I function just like a normal teenager. I may not know exactly what you're going through, but I know that it does get better no matter how much you think it won't.
I have Bipolar Disorder and Depression at 13... this describes it exactly... especially since i cant go on medication because it might make my depression worse... I cant even close my eyes at night for fear that Slender Man will come and get me, or walk in a room with sleeping people for fear they will wake up and become zombies... ^^ I also have anxiety disorder.... So, that magnifies it... hehe
I have Bipolar Disorder, but also have ADD along with it as well. Trust me, having both is a battle. But, I'm on medication and it does help. One time, I didn't take them, and I will tell you...It wasn't pretty. I've been to a psychiatric hospital three times because of this. Please don't ever skip them again. I hope you are on good medication dear.
I suffer from Bipolar as well, I know how you feel when you get so anxious and paranoid of everything around you. But, sweetie please never skip your medicine again. It will help keep your moods more controlled. Anytime, I skip my medication I end up hospitalizing for harming myself due to my paranoia.
I may not bipolar disorder, but this made me realise a lot of things. it was so beautiful, and so well put out. you are an amazing poet, and bet you're an amazing person. I will read this a lot, probably once a day to remind myself. Keep up the fantastic writing!!
Oh, man. This definately strikes me as the more schizophrenic side of the spectrum, but still. This really strikes me. Thank you for this, and I hope your demons are held at bay by the medicines you take.
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