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There's something I want you to know,
Because, hey dad..
I'm not stupid.
I know you're not going to be here

Something I wanted to say..
I hate you.

I hate how you've been there for me.
I hate how you made me who I am today.
I hate how you've always inspired me,
And I hate how you've been the best father anyone could ask for.
I hate how I know you enough to know exactly what you're going to say.
I hate how you know me the same way.
I hate how you love your family more than anything.
I hate how you've been strong just so we don't feel weak,
And I hate how you never gave up on us.
On your family.
On your daughters.
On me.
I hate knowing that it's going to be

I'm going to miss you, Dad.
... Daddy, I'm going to miss you.

And I hate you for that.

Dad's dying. Slowly. He's in the hospital right now. His heart and kidneys are failing...

No idea how long he's gonna last.


Love you guys. I'll post something for you guys in a little bit. Just be patient with me <3 pleeease :)



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DrunkenPotatoePirate Featured By Owner Feb 2, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
This brought tears to my eyes. It spoke to me in the deepest possible way. I felt this way towards my father until a little over a year ago. I finally opened my eyes and saw that he is, to be blunt, a deadbeat, and he has always been. I was in denial, forcing myself to stay consumed by ignorance. The last five lines... They describe exactly how I feel. Oh gosh, I'm crying now. >~<
This beautiful piece is one of the best poems I have ever read. The fact that it spoke to me, and I connected with it so strongly, shows just how skilled you are with the power of the written word. :clap:
MikkiMarie Featured By Owner Feb 2, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you so much. I'm so sorry you've been through the things you've been through. :(
I'm glad you're staying strong and not giving up on yourself. Keep it up :)
DrunkenPotatoePirate Featured By Owner Feb 2, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
You're welcome. And thank you for your support. :huggle:
Zinniss Featured By Owner Oct 4, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
evettejo Featured By Owner May 12, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Please always think about this poem Mikki, please. Never take your parents for granted.
Snowy-Adopts Featured By Owner Feb 14, 2014  Student Digital Artist
Your art has been featured!…
ToaTepsak Featured By Owner Jan 5, 2014  Student Traditional Artist

*cries, applauds, then gives you a big hug*

You are such a fabulous writer.

But if you'll excuse me, I need a tissue.

vladamir-the-fox Featured By Owner Dec 7, 2013
i cried :(
Whitedragon421 Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
Hey, I can relate. My daddy passed away just last year from a disease that lasted 9 years and immobilized his body. But still, he managed to support the family and all of our adventures, he learned to live even though he was dying. For 9 years, more than half of my life.

This poem is so beautiful. It reminds me of all the times I took my dad's support for granted, and reminds me of just how much I miss him.

I really just saw this now and I already admire you. I took a glance at your other poems and was blown away. You are amazing and beautiful and I want you to remember that whenever you feel down. Thanks so much for writing this! This was a wonderful piece. Have an internet hug!!!!
liveartaslifeart Featured By Owner Nov 25, 2013

Oh my gosh..




I found this a while ago


*Not sure how long* :/


And then today I watched you


Was going through ur stuff


Found this


Like, WHA o.o


Btw, I know this is a simple word, but it's the one word that people find sufficient. I am going to make a word someday, that feels more genuine than "sorry."


But.. for now? I'm sorry. :/

RaInBoWsAuCeE Featured By Owner Nov 25, 2013  Hobbyist
That was just beautifully written ;_; I don't really have the words to say how much that touched and pulled on my weak heart strings ;_;And im so sorry about your father<3 I really do hope he gets better ;-;
BlackieChan35 Featured By Owner Nov 25, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
This poem is just.. I don't even know what to say. It left me speechless. It makes me realize how precious and fragile life is and even though my dad angers me occasionally, he's done a larger amount of great things to impact my life and he only wants the best from. I'm going to hug him when he gets home.

I'm sincerely sorry about your situation. I'm going to pray for you and your entire family. I know I don't personally know you, but if you ever need someone to talk to, you can note me. Stay strong. 
KotoriNico-chan Featured By Owner Nov 25, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
I'm praying for you and for father~
FandomFurryFan Featured By Owner Nov 25, 2013
I lost my father in an ambulance accident... I feel you.Sad emote//eyes closed
AStudyInScarlet Featured By Owner Nov 24, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I'm really sorry to hear that :( No girl should have to go through losing her father. I hope he gets better.
IrkenConfederate Featured By Owner Nov 23, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Losing one's father is not easy. My heart goes out to you both. Good luck.
vlancii Featured By Owner Nov 22, 2013
One of my all time favorites!  Seriously!  You can really tell how much your dad means to you.
MorningAfterWolf Featured By Owner Nov 15, 2013  Student Digital Artist
I know how you feel, i lost my dad recently, i hope you dont lose your dad though
medabee Featured By Owner Nov 13, 2013
my father's liver were going bad he didn't make i kept asking god why?
KaileyThePanda Featured By Owner Nov 12, 2013  Student Artist
awww. plz get well soon! amen! :)Heart :| (Blank Stare) Waaaah! Cutie Depressed - 13 NaNoEmo #5 
slowlyfallingpart Featured By Owner Nov 12, 2013
This is a truly amazing poem, I hope you are ok as well as your dad. 
Tatulanitapw Featured By Owner Nov 9, 2013
hope ur dad will be allright...
christchild6 Featured By Owner Nov 9, 2013
I am so sorry. This is powerful though. You are blessed.
Majikku7 Featured By Owner Nov 8, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Wow. That's a amazing poem. Great job :)
TheIcyGlaceon Featured By Owner Nov 8, 2013  Student Writer
Never really had a dad.
Well, I did, but both of them were jackasses.
I don't think having a father is really that important, because in my life, I learned are nothing but wastes that will never last.

But I see, your dad meant something to you, so I'm sorry you have to lose him :/
SketerTheSkater Featured By Owner Nov 8, 2013
Me too
Rainiila Featured By Owner Nov 8, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I'm sorry. Your dad obviously meant a lot to you, and that must be horrible for your family. 
Midnightdragonchaser Featured By Owner Nov 8, 2013

Really beautifull (I cried)Hug 

I'm so sorry:( (Sad) 

GloryAngel Featured By Owner Nov 8, 2013
Huh. Methinks the "anger" stage of grief (anger, bargaining, denial,  depression and acceptance).
Foulmouthed-Fangirl Featured By Owner Nov 7, 2013
In the last three days my Mom spent in the hospital after three years of fighting off cancer, this was how I felt too.
I understand.
And even though this is probably the last thing you want to hear- I'm sorry.
Axel-Dieing-Wolf Featured By Owner Nov 7, 2013
I know I dont know you or anything but same thing happened to me, im so sorry :(
sweetladyamy Featured By Owner Nov 7, 2013  Hobbyist Artist
Ankra, Totra, Delta, Aeria, Glaciera, Fieria, Dibla, Luminera.

May he rest in peace...
CornersOfReality Featured By Owner Nov 7, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank you for uploading this, this is so, so beautiful and I cried. I can't even imagine what that must be like, to lose someone so dear... And to know that you're losing them, and being forced to watch them die.
You and your family is in my heart, and I'll be thinking of you before I go to sleep tonight. I pray that your father will heal and that your family will be able to share more precious moments together and to be able to cherish your time together. Your are so very brave for putting this up. Thank you for that.
SonPanssj4 Featured By Owner Nov 7, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I feel SO sad! I feel this way too. I haven't seen my Dad since I was seven.
leon52827 Featured By Owner Nov 7, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist

love is strong

love is weak

love is poison

love is cure

love is a bottomless hole that sucks everything in.... what makes us human.


losing your father was a great loss. but he has made your life ever so happy. to lose the ones we have come to love is a bitter taste of reality. but you can live without it. you are strong. continue to be

xrayiz Featured By Owner Nov 7, 2013
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ReneKunert Featured By Owner Nov 7, 2013   Traditional Artist
I just lost my dad too and this really hit a soft spot.  I just cried right along with you :(
gabysoca Featured By Owner Nov 6, 2013
I loved each word, as one song I heard I think you bring beauty from pain.
My best hopes for you and your family!
Nikobyte Featured By Owner Nov 6, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
:iconsadhugplz:I'm sorry about your dad.  :(
86-shadesofblue Featured By Owner Nov 6, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
that was powerful man good job *gives a thumbs up in approval*
Foxybus Featured By Owner Nov 6, 2013  Hobbyist Artist
this makes me so sad... i almost cryed..
lets hope that it'll all be well in the end.
sladetwc Featured By Owner Nov 6, 2013
Great job as always, Mikki.  Thank you for sharing with us, and our thoughts and prayers should be with you and your family.
King-Doodles Featured By Owner Nov 5, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
:iconmanlytearsplz: Beautiful. I'm sorry.
SurrealNacre Featured By Owner Nov 5, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
:hug: it'll be all right :tighthug:
SpyroAgain Featured By Owner Nov 5, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Send my love to your family <3
Frobenius Featured By Owner Nov 5, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
I'm not sure how to respond to this. So beautiful, intense and somehow stronger than I thought. I'm sorry for you and your dads situation. Nothing is worse than losing a loved one. 
SoraLove Featured By Owner Nov 5, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
Good poem! I'm so sorry this is happening to you and your family! :(It's terrible!  :hug:
BeautifulChaos99 Featured By Owner Nov 5, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
My dad died back in September, a car crash while trying to help a deputy. I'm really trying not to be insensitive, but thank whatever you believe in that you still have time. My dad was lost suddenly, and at least you have time to say goodbye. I never had that opportunity, and I would give up my own life to just be able to say goodbye to him. I miss him like hell, be grateful for whatever time you have with him. But I'm sorry you are losing your Dad to.
Lararth Featured By Owner Nov 5, 2013
Well... i'm sorry if i do offend you in some way, thats not my intention. ah..and sorry for the strong words, i dont know english enough to find another words.

 Hey, i'm not writing to give you support, or some miraculous advice to make you feel better, i just wanted to let the my thought. 
I dont think you hate him. You just are missing him before he passes away. It might be rash, but just live, no one knows when its gonna be their's last day, so just.. be w him like you always were. I dont really know about what u are passing, so i dont talk of experience about it. I never missed my dad, because he was never here to begin with. 
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