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I am thirteen years old.
I am not typical.
I am not average.
I am me.

I have been in two mental facilities.
Both times for thoughts of suicide.
I am not emo.
I am not a freak.
I am me.

My mother attempted suicide about six months ago.
My sister attempted suicide when i was eight.
But, I am not a victim.
I am not tortured.
I am me.

My father had a heart attack just over a week ago.
He was hospitalized for nine days.
He recently returned to the hospital for kidney problems.
I suffer from Bipolar Disorder with Psychotic Features.
I have hallucinations.
I have delusions.
But I am not a disorder.
I am not my difficulties.
I am not my troubles.

I am me.
:) this is me. Who are you?
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OtakuPizzaCookies Featured By Owner Dec 2, 2014
My feels... they hurt... good job!
:-)
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RED-COBRA Featured By Owner Jun 30, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Touching!Nothing more that I could say.You seem to have been through a lot.I may not know you but you have my blessing.Oh,there was more that I could say!
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SilviaMarti Featured By Owner May 19, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Another one in my faves :D
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8Imagination8 Featured By Owner Apr 10, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
Yor poetry is so touching, please keep writing!
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Akirou4 Featured By Owner Mar 8, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
-is this true? I don't mean to sound like I'm doubting this is true, but to go through all that... It must be hard to even think about it... Truly, I think this is amazing poetry, so I encourage you to keep writing!-
(^_−)−☆
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MikkiMarie Featured By Owner Mar 8, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
yes it is :) Thank you! <3
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Levitating-Narwhal Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2013  Student General Artist
I never get tired of your poetry!
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MikkiMarie Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Awwww! thanks! <3
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Levitating-Narwhal Featured By Owner Feb 25, 2013  Student General Artist
Don't mention it. :worship: :iconlawooplz:
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angellove94 Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2013   Writer
ur a wonderful young girl! your so beaotful and strong!
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Thorneborne Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2013
I am impassioned, I am weak, I am eternal fragility with words and thoughts of iron - i am, for whatever good or ill it may do me.
Ah well, perks of being a gemini, perhaps; or a wallflower, or an eccentric - or just a person.
Anyway; simplistic but very evocatively written, with tremendous courage to share something so deeply personal.
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MikkiMarie Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
<3 thank you so much :)
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franny123 Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2013  Student Writer
I like the way the words flow. You've got talent, and that's.. Awesome.
I'm a little jealous of you people. You know who you are. :)
If you are you, then who am I? I like this poem... It made me ask myself a bunch of questions.
I'm just a nobody. You have talents, strength and I guess a clear path of who you want to be and where you want to go.
I'm just an average nobody that not a lot of people like. There's nothing wrong with me, but I guess I'm just not attractive or something. No talents, no promise, nothing. I'm a negative nobody with an absolute value of zero. :D
Who am I? I don't really know if I'm a me. Can a nobody be somebody? This poem made me think--who am I, really? A waste of space or just a waste of life? Or maybe just another average nobody?

I like your poem. :D And your ideology.
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MikkiMarie Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
No one is an average nobody :) everyone is definitely special in their own unique way... even if it means being a nobody. Because nobody is always somebody to the people that are kind enough to notice them.
Thank you so much! :)
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Coeb Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2013
I suffer from chronic depression, anxiety, kleptomania (with physical objects, not art or literature) eating disorders, paranoia, delusions, and at a high risk for paranoid schizophrenia that is near unavoidable. But that's me, and your you. We aren't freaks, we aren't emo, because we are already us and we can't be two things at once. c: You go girl! Keep that attitude with you and you'll go far.
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MikkiMarie Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Booya! :D
Thank you!! <3
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Coeb Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2013
You're very welcome! :squee: :heart:
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SomeLameStuff Featured By Owner Feb 21, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I'M JEAN VALJEAN! (sorry, couldn't resist)

I have a form of Dissociative Identity Disorder (also known as Multiple Personality Disorder), making this question harder for me to answer than most, as you can imagine. Is the current me the real me? Or is it hidden somewhere inside?

I've been writing on and off for two years now, and I must say that I probably couldn't write as well as you when I was your age six years ago. Well done! You do have a bright future ahead of you.
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MikkiMarie Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I'm so sorry, that sounds incredibly tough :( Hopefully you make it through <3

Thank you very much :)
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SomeLameStuff Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Yes well, if life didn't have challenges, it wouldn't be life!

Hang on, I'm gonna go write that down...
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NoaQep Featured By Owner Feb 21, 2013  Professional General Artist
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livil00lah Featured By Owner Feb 21, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I am thirteen, and I have ADHD and have struggled with chronic depression. None of the teachers wanted me so I had to stay at home. Everything is too easy and I'm always bored. And I'm still called a freak. My friends think I'm always happy but I feel dead inside because I'm scared to feel anymore. I'm scared to try. I don't want to fail.
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MikkiMarie Featured By Owner Feb 21, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
i can definitely relate to you <3
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livil00lah Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
<3
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XxFisahxX Featured By Owner Feb 21, 2013  Hobbyist
Wow.. Amazing poem. Keep being you girl! :) <3
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MikkiMarie Featured By Owner Feb 21, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you so much!! <3
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RubyDaSquirlz Featured By Owner Feb 21, 2013  Student Writer
"This is me. Who are you?"

To be honest, I don't have a freaking clue XD

Oh wow, that rhymed. o.O
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MikkiMarie Featured By Owner Feb 21, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
YOU POET, YOU!
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RubyDaSquirlz Featured By Owner Feb 21, 2013  Student Writer
Yay~!
Still, well written. ^_^
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silverxblaze13 Featured By Owner Feb 21, 2013
Do you mind if I do something like a response this and credit you for the idea?
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MikkiMarie Featured By Owner Feb 21, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Sure thing! :)
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MikkiMarie Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
lovely!
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silverxblaze13 Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2013
Thanks! ^.^
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silverxblaze13 Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2013
Awesome! Thanks!
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Ra-Ra-s-tear Featured By Owner Feb 21, 2013  Hobbyist
my heart goes out to you.
I have been suffering from depression for many years.
and I adore the fact that you can accept yourself so fully.
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MikkiMarie Featured By Owner Feb 21, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
i'm so sorry, depression is rough :( I hope your depression doesn't overpower you.
Thank you so much <3
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Silencedbook9 Featured By Owner Feb 20, 2013  Student Writer
I'm autistic. I'm a Bookaholic (person who loves books). I'm an Otaku (person who likes Japanese anime). I'm a history fanatic. I'm both semi-emo and semi-outsider. I'm a writer. I'm a poet. I'm a musician. I'm smart but I know that I'm an idiot. I'm a day dreamer. I'm me.
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MikkiMarie Featured By Owner Feb 21, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
<3 that was beautiful :) i love it! I'm so glad you accept yourself as well :)
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Silencedbook9 Featured By Owner Feb 21, 2013  Student Writer
Thank you!!!!!!! XD
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InvaderZIB13 Featured By Owner Feb 20, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Your titles just give you away.
You always seem to give such honest words that touch the heart...
I love them! :iconcrycryplz:
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MikkiMarie Featured By Owner Feb 21, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Awww :') That just made my day! Thanks so much!
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InvaderZIB13 Featured By Owner Feb 21, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
You're welcome!
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Mythoria Featured By Owner Feb 20, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
this sounds really deep and wonderful, yet really sad.

I suffer from depression and insomnia since I was 13 (~ 7 years) and I know how you feel, and I also know, that it won't help you, when people try to tell you that they understand you.

I was often sceptically eyed or even expelled by others in my age, and I often had problems with grown ups (teachers and their lack of understanding -.-" ).

I hope you can keep your mind up, I kinda feel you have much potential for a great life, there is allways a open door behind all those walls :hug:
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MikkiMarie Featured By Owner Feb 20, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Aw i'm sorry :( mental issues stink.
i hope you can overcome it :)
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Mythoria Featured By Owner Feb 21, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
yeah mental issues are worse than every physical illness, cause (that's why I hate my depressions) other people who don't know the feeling keep saying "come on, don't be so lame, you just need to pull yourself up, then all things will get better!".

But if you are so deep inside a depression, you won't have the power to get yourself up, you remain lying there, and everyone around you thinks you are lazy.

And society just begin to realize, that there is something like mental disorders. I sometimes feel like a stranger to other people, when I tell them what I suffer from, I wish I would know, why people can't accept mental issues like all other physical problems.

Healthcare in Austria is not the best, but better than nothing. We just need to fight, fight for our rights, as you say, we are we, and nothing else!
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MikkiMarie Featured By Owner Feb 21, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I'm so sorry I sure hope things do get better for you <3
That's right, we are who we are, and as long as we accept ourselves, no one can take us down <3
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whatMadnessIsThis Featured By Owner Feb 20, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I'm me, perhaps I should do one like this to explain better.
I just want to say I admire you a lot for putting this out there :3
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MikkiMarie Featured By Owner Feb 20, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Aww thanks :) Go ahead, make one! it's tons of fun :)
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whatMadnessIsThis Featured By Owner Feb 20, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
It sounds it. And you're very welcome! :iconhugplz:
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