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I’ll just say what’s on my mind
For everyone to hate.
I used to cry myself to sleep
And slice my skin with blades.
I wrapped a belt around my neck
In hopes of lifelessness,
And after failing even that,
I remained emotionless.
My mother used to cry all day
And my dad used to be ill.
My sister attempted suicide
By swallowing the pill.
My mother tried to kill herself
And we almost watched her fall.
She swallowed gulps of whiskey
And she blamed me for it all.
I have hallucinations,
And delusions, and depression
And fighting my own demons
Has become a slight obsession.

I’ll just say what’s on my mind
For everyone to see.
This is who I am, and hey!
I’m still okay with me.
Here's the truth.
Here's who I am.
Here's, me.
And you wanna know what? :) I'm okay with it.
I mean, I might be demented, and I might not be the most amazing person.
But I'm me.
And I'm, fine, with, that.

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yodeeness Featured By Owner Mar 17, 2014
*snaps*
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Ushi-o Featured By Owner Aug 7, 2013
im suprised this manz people can relate...
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turtleloftus Featured By Owner Jul 25, 2013
Your amazing, specially like the last paragraph XD

I’ll just say what’s on my mind
For everyone to see.
This is who I am, and hey!
I’m still okay with me.
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Samanychibi Featured By Owner Jul 22, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
So amazing. I love your poetry. The detail and the beauty of it all reflects how beautiful your soul is. The emotion is touching and your writing is so inspiring. Keep up the amazing work! I understand what you're going through and even though you have no idea who I am, I just want to say hang in there, girl!
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MichealCaesar Featured By Owner Jul 9, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Very familiar feeling for me. Hope moving forward that self confidence makes everything else more bearable, keep up the good stuff
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Zereverefano Featured By Owner Jul 4, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
the truth should always come before anything, and you seem to have put this phrase to its fullest extent: nice job
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DarkLover33 Featured By Owner Jul 3, 2013   Writer
Wow...this is very emotional and heartbreaking... but hopeful at the same time. Thats really awesome that you are ok with being you, never change that. I hope you go on to do many great things in life
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angelichope Featured By Owner Jul 2, 2013
Good that you say what's on your mind; never stop.
I'm sorry to hear all of that, and you are an amazing person!
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Bronypeople Featured By Owner Jun 30, 2013
This is lovely... It goes with me, as well. I see delusions, hallucinations... I will never judge anyone like you, especially one who is brave enough to write it in a poem and post it on the Internet! I love it. You're a great person and a great writer! :)
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autumncaterpillars Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2013  Student
I really love this poem and it really inspired me. I could really relate, you are a great writer!
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OakAndAcorn Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2013
Hey man, I have hallucinations too...I've been lucky though; mine have been mostly benevolent and interesting. Hope yours aren't too bad. :worry:
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fangrl97 Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2013
Love. It.
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courtnic Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2013
Nice!
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SolarLugia Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thanks for your honesty! Good luck!
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Ninja615 Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
nice i like this
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Maruuko Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
you dealt with it and didn't let the sadness take you. good job.
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Devin-Trinidad Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
This is so BA. I like your little philosophy here!
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Yosumi-Chan Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Impressive! Way the go girl!
If you are ok with yourself, then no one should change that! Just be proud to be you!♥
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Shyly-flutter Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
That was amazing!
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Shyly-flutter Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
That was amazing!
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lykaios-the-wolf Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
I wish I could have been the person who was there for you..
Beaudiful texst.. It comes from the hearth as true as it, it.
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krasarahthetigeress2 Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2013  Student General Artist
This is beautiful. I love it :heart:
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RoseDragon13 Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Wow.
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Triforcefangirl Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Beautiful ^^
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EmilyTstrange Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I love this :heart:
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freedomforus Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
my god, very incredible, i can feel the emotion in your writing.
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lilkatkat Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Beautiful.
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At least you have the courage to share it all with the world.
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tatibanana17 Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2013  Student General Artist
This is amazing, and really beautiful. :)
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racerman56 Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
Way to go girl, so pleased that you're fine with you as you are, that's the best way to be, I'm also pleased with you as you, I think you're a very talented young poet, keep doing what you're doing and never stop being you.
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Etve Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2013
Beautiful.
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ayamehebi666 Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
What more can I say... I simply love it.
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kaoru-reisaki Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
It's a very deep and personal poem. I loved the fact that you are imperfect in such a way (having hallucinations, delusions, etc) but still fighting your own demons.

Which comes to me to ask if you meant demons as in those hallucinations/delusions. Also, when you said "and fighting my own demons/becomes a slight obsession", did you mean that you've become obsessed at fighting your own demons?

Just checking. I used to study literature at college and wanted to know what you meant... >.>''
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MurkyVisions Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2013  Student General Artist
Very neat rhythm and flow - well done! Makes it strangely light-hearted despite the topic ...
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SilviaMarti Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Love the last lines :D
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AkatsukiLoverXDX3 Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2013  Professional General Artist
Your attitude is refreshing...<3
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IittleG Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
as it seems some of the most inspiring people have the hardest of lives and I guess it because they go through thing people like me don't have too.
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Cwolf0615 Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist

I'm really sorry for everything you've been through hun. :tighthug:

 

And those last two lines, OMG SO PERFECT!!! :la:

 

 

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sun-lily Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2013  Hobbyist
I'm glad you are not afraid to share the truth.
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TaeYoongJoongSa Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2013
This is what I wanted to see ... some truth to it ... to be able to understand. When they don't ... they don't understand, and sometimes even when
you have it out there ... some people still don't understand. But I do

I knew people could have problems. But some people think it's worse than it is ... and I didn't want you to be one of those people. The people who
"didn't have it that bad ... but think they do". I didn't want you to be one of those people. I came from "a different side of things" ... I had
my own hardships, my own bad and hard times in my own life ... and I just wanted to share my perspective earlier on things

I didn't show it all ... but I wanted to give an idea how I handled it. My attitude worked for me ... it was my side of things. But for you ... just be
you ... be happy, do what you do. Even if it gives you temporary escape ... do what you do if it helps you. I don't think you're that crazy.


I didn't know. I apologize for that.
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MoonsongDragonChild Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Beautiful.
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MarioGamer96 Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2013
Its good to know that your still fighting on :hug:
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AstroGirl123 Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
:O
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EozRedavni Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2013  Student Artist
... I just want to give you a hug. (*internethug*)
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brenecia14 Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2013  Student Writer
I'm glad that you're still pushing through and aren't afraid to be you!!^_^
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Raqythetimelord Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
:hug: I went through somewhat the same.
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ButtercupZirka Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2013  Hobbyist Filmographer
:iconsobeautifulplz:=>:iconukraineplz:=>:iconcryforeverplz:
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