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Canvas Is The MirrorA canvas is a mirror
The paint drips down with my reflection
The canvas is my mirror
Maybe imperfect
But only because
The canvas is me.

The canvas is your mirror
As the brush tickles its surface
The canvas is our mirror
Messy
Ugly
And beautiful.

The canvas is a mirror
The depth of the artwork stares back into my
Eyes.
After all, I do not paint a canvas
Because the canvas
Paints
Me.

BullyShh.
Shut up.
Don't
Say
Anything.

Run.
Faster.
Faster.
Faster.
Stop.

Scream.

Fear.

Die.

Demons in the shadows
Twisting
Turning
Staring.
Watch yourself
Bleeding.

Quiet now.
Hush, child.
They'll find a way
To get you.

Beatings, swallowing you.
Scars, defining you.
You.
Breaking.
Crying.
Dying.

After all
You know you're weak.

You can't fight a bully
When the bully's inside of you.

AsylumWho are you?
Where are you?
What... are you?

The blinding white walls
Closing in on you
Trapping you
Drowning you.

Who are you?

Certainly not
yourself.
Certainly not that
happy little girl
jumping through fairy tales
as a sunset paints the silver sky.

Where are you?
Certainly not
home.
Definitely not where
you'd want to be.

What are you?
Certainly not
wanted.
Obviously not
needed.

Blood, scars, wounds.
Pain.
Torture.

All you see are shadows
In a room of white walls...

No Longer a Little GirlDear imagination, can't you be the thing you were
Butterflies and daffodils and happiness so pure
Sunny skies and lullabies and dreams of what could be
Hidden worlds and wonderlands of things they couldn't see
Shining gowns and silver crowns for dancing with the prince
Twirling with excitement, though the others weren't convinced

Dear intimidation, did you find it to be true
All I ever needed was an overdose of you
Silly stares and laughter slowly flood a child's mind
Making me abandon every daydream I could find
Lost beneath the shadows of the sky so dark and dead
Far too weak to turn around, yet scared of things ahead

Dear destructive ten

I am a labelI slid the blade across my wrist
Once
Twice
Again and again.

Maybe I’m an emotional freak.

I cause fights and arguments
Over
And over
Again.

Maybe I’m a troublemaker.

I use make up to make myself seem
Better
And…
Prettier.

Maybe I’m girly.

I complain about things
Even when sometimes
They’re not
That
Bad.

Maybe I’m an attention seeker.

I fall under so many
Stereotypes.

So maybe I am a label.

Or maybe
I’m just me.

One dose of glitterOne dose of glitter can light up the world
One little thought can bring back little girls
Fairies and dragons and strong, worthy knights
One dose of glitter can shine through the night

Hush, little girl, for the stars in the sky
Shining so sweetly like your stunning eyes

Don't let the nightmares define what you'll be
Notice the beauty within every dream

Hush, little girl, there is no need to fight…
One dose of glitter to light up the night.

CancerFeel the pain aching through your bones
Your flesh, seemingly fading to dust
Your mind, burning
Your thoughts, racing.
Dying.
Breaking.

"It'll be okay."
No it won't.
"I know."

Fight the tears, your father can't see you cry.
After all
You're a fighter.
Right?

"You can do this."
No, I can't.
"Thank you."

Breathe.
Slower.
Slower.
No.
Faster.
Stop.

Shut up.

You
Can't
Win.

After all
You don't have cancer.

Cancer
Is who you are.

SchizophreniaShh.
They're listening.
Look behind you.
Breathe in.
Breathe out.
In again.
Faster.
Faster.
Stop.
"Are you okay?"
I'm dying.
"I'm fine."

Shapes, forms, bodies, animals, plants
Shifting, moving, being
Watching
Staring.
"What's wrong with you?"
Everything.
"Nothing."

Freak.
You're a freak.
No one wants you.
You should kill yourself, let them out of their misery
Do it
Quick.
Now.
Or we'll do the job for you.

"You're crazy."
I know.
"They're fake, you know."
No they're not.
"What are you doing?"
I'm shaking.
I'm dying.
This is how I live.

Save me
Save me, from the monsters, the shadows
Save me

"What can I do?"
You can stop.
You can stop bein

AnorexiaMeet a girl named No One, with a heart of shattered stone
Staring at the other girl, the one that's not alone
Girl with skin that glistens, with the eyes of crystal seas
Grin of shining diamonds and a laugh like a disease
Flashes just a glance and soon, she's every trouble's cure
She has everything… and No One's off to be like her.

Eating turns into a crime, she'd rather be away
Thrusting fingers down her throat to make herself okay
Watching as her very bones are seen behind her flesh
There she drowns in tears, for she has not yet seen success.

Minutes turn to hours, and these hours turn to days
Every moment slipping, slowly fading

What Happened?I used to think make up
Made people ugly.
Now I think I'm ugly without it.

I used to think people
Always loved me.
Now I think everyone hates me.

I used to think everybody
Was my best friend.
Now I think no one truly is.

I used to think
Boys were icky!
Now I wish I had one.

What happened to being
Happy?

Good Enough... for YOU.As I sit here cradling the blade in my hands
Treasuring the moments I wish that I had
I can't stop growing more lost and confused
I can't stop thinking... am I good enough for you?

As I sit here, wrapping the rope around my neck
No one will understand a meaning so complex
I simply can't stop thinking about it somehow
Thinking, am I good enough for you now?

As I sit here, pulling the trigger on the gun
I think, maybe I was never meant for "the one"...
And ...
Bam
goes the bullet.
For when I think it through...
I really won't ever be good enough for you.

Let Us Spend EternityLet us spend eternity, just dancing in the rain
Crystal drops of water falling sweetly on the pain
Every silent moment spent singing a melody
Seeing things, the little things, that only we can see
Maybe we could dance among the roses in the dark
Maybe we could start the race right at the finish mark
Baby, all I ask is that you know you mean it all
If you are to learn to fly, you must first learn to fall...

bedtime stories don't quite go this wayonce upon a time--
no wait, that's wrong.
let's not start our story that way.
many times,
you find yourself in your bathtub,
the water scalding
and risen as high as the rim itself.
you find yourself submerged
and thrashing
and screaming out for somebody to help
you;
you are being drowned.
monsters as black as the sky
are tearing at your ankles,
cackling and pulling you down and out of sight
and water splashes out of the
tub and you are seeing nothing
but old memories that stick to your throat
when you can do nothing but cry.
many times,
you find yourself in your shower,
curled up in a corner furthest
from the water because
you are afraid that cold water will wash
away your sins.
you are afraid that if that water touches
you in the slightest bit, you
will melt like the wicked witch, and
you haven't felt enough suffering to die
in such an easy way.
melting is far less painful than the ways
that cross your mind when
water falls over your eyes and stings and
you can do nothing but make
a s

GravityI promise I’m not like everybody else.
I won’t
BREAK you.

I’m not here to
HURT you.
I’m not here to
RUIN everything.

I’m here to
FIX you.
I’m here to
SAVE you.
I’m here to
Make everything
BETTER,

Please don’t say I’m like everybody else.
Because I’m not here to
BREAK you.

But sometimes, gravity is
STRONGER
Than
ME.
Sometimes you’re going to
FALL.

But I promise, even if I’m not there…
I’ll still be there, for you.

Attention Seeker"Attention seeker."
As I slide the knife across my tongue
The poison resting in my lungs
Fighting till the war's been won
But you're right, this is all done for fun.

The rope around my neck as I pull it tight
The struggles I face as I die to fight
And slowly, I fade off into a dark night...
Goodbye, smiles, goodbye, light...
Dying, breaking, losing sight
Of all that's proper, all that's bright
With all my strength and all my might..
I mean, I do this for attention.. right?

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Sunny skies and lullabies and dreams of what could be
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Losing a Friend

by ~MikkiMarie, Dec 31, 2012, 11:50:22 AM
Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

Dreams, no.
Nightmares.
Spinning, spiraling, chasing you everywhere you go
"It had to happen."
No, it didn't.
"I know."

Turn off the light.
On again.
Off.
Stop breathing, it's not worth it.
Play a sad song in your head
Faster
Faster
Stop.
"Are you okay?"
No.
"I'm fine."

I miss you.
I miss your voice
Your eyes
Your smile.
"I'm sorry."
How could you be?
"It's not your fault."

Cry.
Slowly, let it poison you
Let it sink into your mind
The pain
The sorrow
The hate.

"You'll get better."
No I won't.
"It was meant to happen."
No it wasn't.
"He's gone."
No.. he's not.

... "I know."

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~Vongola-MistGuardian Dec 31, 2012

You did well

I really like it.

Those are my favorite lines. so true~
Cry.
Slowly, let it poison you
Let it sink into your mind
The pain
The sorrow

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~MikkiMarie Jan 1, 2013

Thanks soo much ^.^

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~Vongola-MistGuardian Jan 2, 2013

You're very welcome!

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~Bhabayagga Dec 31, 2012 Student Writer

Oh.. I can connect. So sad.. but true.

Well written.

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~MikkiMarie Dec 31, 2012

Thank you ^.^

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~Bhabayagga Dec 31, 2012 Student Writer

You're welcome!

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~Cklovingston Dec 31, 2012 Student Filmographer

This is exactly how I felt when my dog died a couple of days ago... But I love your poems <3 They make perfect sense of how I feel, sometimes.

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~MikkiMarie Dec 31, 2012

Thanks for adding me to your watch <3

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