I'm alive!So, as most of you know, I went through a pretty rough time and posted some journals about it. I decided to take a break from everything for a while, which (unfortunately) meant taking a break from poetry. In fact, I stayed off deviantART most of the time.
And now, I'm back I'm happier than ever, too <3
Thanks to everybody for being so kind and faithful through everything. I love all of you so much!
Music ...Have you ever took a blade to your wrist?
Have you been skipping meals?
We're gonna try something new today...
How does that make you feel?
~ Hospital For Souls - Bring Me The Horizon
<3 stay strong... i love you all.
My existence...Well I guess it's time for me to rant about my failures in life. Sounds like a good thing to do. I'm going to number my failures in the past 24 hours to help you realize how dumb i truly am. Enjoy, oh glorious watchers of mine.
1) I woke up this morning and saw my shadow on the wall. Naturally, I panic. Naturally, I have a muscle spasm because i freaked out. So I punched myself in the face. Strike one for Mikki.
2) After this beautiful moment of my own abuse toward my face, I walk into the kitchen to get food. I find food, I eat food. I enjoyed the food. And suddenly A;JBG;KSDJGB;SKDJGBS. my fork scrapes the plate. One of the worst sounds, i'd say. So I started choking on my last bite of burrito. I survived, though. Wooooohoo.
3) i ran into a door. A closed, clearly visible door.
4) I nearly dropped my glasses in the toilet. I didn't, because of my SUPER FAST NINJA SKILLS OF DOOM THAT YOU WOULD NOT BELIEVE THE AWESOMENESS OF, but i almost did. and that's bad enough.
5) i also fell asle
Maybe.Fist fights and battles in my head
I'll always remember what you said...
The day you lied.
Glass shattered all over the dirt
I'll always remember your last words...
The day you died.
I could have saved you, love.
I should have saved you, love.
I would have saved you, love...
Then maybe we could both still be
Where Reality RoamsIn between the dreams I dream
And the hopes that lead me so
Is a place where I have to be
But is a place I rather not go
It's where the blaze of guns
And the smell of death
Are constant in the mind
Where the grumbling of hunger
And the dryness of tongue
Plague the human kind
In between the hopes I hope
And the dreams that lead me on
Is a place I have to see
But a place I wish it was not
It's where the silky words
And the flash of a blade
Creep in the high shadows
Where damnation of many
And the loss of souls
Are many that blindly follow
So as You give me a dream
That will help me hold onto Your hope
I walk brazenly in Your strength
To face the place where reality roams
Try Harder"What are you doing?"
"I- I am dan-sing."
"... It doesn't look like dancing. You're going to have to try really hard if you want to dance right."
"Yeah. Do you want to be a dancer when you grow up?"
"It's where you dance all the time and people pay to come see you dance."
"Dance... all time?"
"Yeah, so do you want to be a dancer?"
"Yes! Yes, I want to be dan-sir!"
"Then try hard to learn to dance, okay?"
"Okay! I will be dan-sir when I grow up!"
Death of SilenceAll these sounds,
making it hard to focus.
But what is that I hear?
On my brain's door, it pounds.
And then a mutter.
What could this be,
and what words
did the mysterious mutter sing?
I reach for the knob,
turn it ever so slowly,
in fear of what might show.
What is it fate will bring?
In a fit of bravery,
I throw open my mind.
Yet nothing stands on its stoop.
The very moment I walk away
I hear it again.
Should I answer
or shall I ignore
and see if the mutter will stay?
I leave the mutter
hoping it is nothing.
I start for the thought hall
but something isn't right.
The long and narrow
seems to be changed.
Doors and windows
never before seen.
I don't like this.
My mind has a new scene.
And as I continue
newly arranged thoughts
The mutter follows my steps.
Knocking louder and louder,
I feel the slamming of the door
in my shivering knees.
I grow more startled,
as I heard it more and more.
I begin to run,
trapped in my own thought.
Open a new door
only to see