I'm alive!So, as most of you know, I went through a pretty rough time and posted some journals about it. I decided to take a break from everything for a while, which (unfortunately) meant taking a break from poetry. In fact, I stayed off deviantART most of the time. And now, I'm back I'm happier than ever, too <3 Thanks to everybody for being so kind and faithful through everything. I love all of you so much!
Music ...Have you ever took a blade to your wrist?Have you been skipping meals?We're gonna try something new today...How does that make you feel?~ Hospital For Souls - Bring Me The Horizon<3 stay strong... i love you all.
Maybe.Fist fights and battles in my headI'll always remember what you said...The day you lied.Glass shattered all over the dirtI'll always remember your last words...The day you died.I could have saved you, love.I should have saved you, love.I would have saved you, love...Then maybe we could both still beAlive.
My existence...Well I guess it's time for me to rant about my failures in life. Sounds like a good thing to do. I'm going to number my failures in the past 24 hours to help you realize how dumb i truly am. Enjoy, oh glorious watchers of mine.1) I woke up this morning and saw my shadow on the wall. Naturally, I panic. Naturally, I have a muscle spasm because i freaked out. So I punched myself in the face. Strike one for Mikki.2) After this beautiful moment of my own abuse toward my face, I walk into the kitchen to get food. I find food, I eat food. I enjoyed the food. And suddenly A;JBG;KSDJGB;SKDJGBS. my fork scrapes the plate. One of the worst sounds, i'd say. So I started choking on my last bite of burrito. I survived, though. Wooooohoo.3) i ran into a door. A closed, clearly visible door.4) I nearly dropped my glasses in the toilet. I didn't, because of my SUPER FAST NINJA SKILLS OF DOOM THAT YOU WOULD NOT BELIEVE THE AWESOMENESS OF, but i almost did. and that's bad enough.5) i also fell asle
Somewhere Between the SpacesA girl sits, her face as blank as an unpainted canvas,Her forearms with words written in scars,“Ugly”, “Worthless”, and finally,“Pain”.Because somewhere between the spacesOf broken times of the cold winter nightsAnd the days meant to be filled withGlee…She was taught, somewhere, somehow,To completely despise the girlShe was growing to become,And more so the one she alreadyWas.Though she felt the pain ofSword fights and battlesBashing on the sides of her mind,She was sure to keep herself looking perfect,So perhaps someone could love theUgliness, which she had written on her foreheadFor the world to see.She desired to belong to someoneOther than herself,Because after all,It is every little girl’s dream.She was no more than ten years old,When she first remembered the shameFrom seeing her own body,And of course, it will not be theLast.She would run home from class at the end ofBoring days,Running aw
Where Reality RoamsIn between the dreams I dreamAnd the hopes that lead me soIs a place where I have to beBut is a place I rather not goIt's where the blaze of gunsAnd the smell of deathAre constant in the mindWhere the grumbling of hungerAnd the dryness of tonguePlague the human kindIn between the hopes I hopeAnd the dreams that lead me onIs a place I have to seeBut a place I wish it was notIt's where the silky wordsAnd the flash of a bladeCreep in the high shadowsWhere damnation of manyAnd the loss of soulsAre many that blindly followSo as You give me a dreamThat will help me hold onto Your hopeI walk brazenly in Your strengthTo face the place where reality roams
Try Harder"What are you doing?" "I- I am dan-sing." "You're dancing?" "Yeah! Dan-sing!" "... It doesn't look like dancing. You're going to have to try really hard if you want to dance right." "Try... hard?" "Yeah. Do you want to be a dancer when you grow up?" "Dan-sir?" "It's where you dance all the time and people pay to come see you dance." "Dance... all time?" "Yeah, so do you want to be a dancer?" "Yes! Yes, I want to be dan-sir!" "Then try hard to learn to dance, okay?" "Okay! I will be dan-sir when I grow up!"~~~ ~~~