I'm alive!So, as most of you know, I went through a pretty rough time and posted some journals about it. I decided to take a break from everything for a while, which (unfortunately) meant taking a break from poetry. In fact, I stayed off deviantART most of the time. And now, I'm back I'm happier than ever, too <3 Thanks to everybody for being so kind and faithful through everything. I love all of you so much!
Music ...Have you ever took a blade to your wrist?Have you been skipping meals?We're gonna try something new today...How does that make you feel?~ Hospital For Souls - Bring Me The Horizon<3 stay strong... i love you all.
Maybe.Fist fights and battles in my headI'll always remember what you said...The day you lied.Glass shattered all over the dirtI'll always remember your last words...The day you died.I could have saved you, love.I should have saved you, love.I would have saved you, love...Then maybe we could both still beAlive.
My existence...Well I guess it's time for me to rant about my failures in life. Sounds like a good thing to do. I'm going to number my failures in the past 24 hours to help you realize how dumb i truly am. Enjoy, oh glorious watchers of mine.1) I woke up this morning and saw my shadow on the wall. Naturally, I panic. Naturally, I have a muscle spasm because i freaked out. So I punched myself in the face. Strike one for Mikki.2) After this beautiful moment of my own abuse toward my face, I walk into the kitchen to get food. I find food, I eat food. I enjoyed the food. And suddenly A;JBG;KSDJGB;SKDJGBS. my fork scrapes the plate. One of the worst sounds, i'd say. So I started choking on my last bite of burrito. I survived, though. Wooooohoo.3) i ran into a door. A closed, clearly visible door.4) I nearly dropped my glasses in the toilet. I didn't, because of my SUPER FAST NINJA SKILLS OF DOOM THAT YOU WOULD NOT BELIEVE THE AWESOMENESS OF, but i almost did. and that's bad enough.5) i also fell asle
Sometimes, when I'm sadSometimes, when I'm sadI remember that one time,All I had to worry about wasIf the bubbles I had blown, were about toDisappear.Sometimes, when I'm sadI remember that one time,I began to worry about the day thatMy childhood would simplyDisappear.Sometimes, when I'm sadI remember that some day,When I'm sitting with my husbandIn the old old house... my days will simplyDisappear.And that day,The day when my heartbeat isSilenced...The day when my breathTruly gets taken away.That's the dayWhen my worries, my concerns, my fears...Will simply...Disappear.
Magic WandDragons fly through poison skies, their whispers in the windLadybugs in black sandcastles, scratches on your skinHopscotch over quicksand, and a castle made of dirtShining silver crowns and dancing 'round in spinning skirtsBloody, ruined princesses locked up in towers tallWatching as the prince quickly begins to fallSlowly, as the innocence does take her darling lifePlease do watch now, as the magic wand becomes a knife...
Where Reality RoamsIn between the dreams I dreamAnd the hopes that lead me soIs a place where I have to beBut is a place I rather not goIt's where the blaze of gunsAnd the smell of deathAre constant in the mindWhere the grumbling of hungerAnd the dryness of tonguePlague the human kindIn between the hopes I hopeAnd the dreams that lead me onIs a place I have to seeBut a place I wish it was notIt's where the silky wordsAnd the flash of a bladeCreep in the high shadowsWhere damnation of manyAnd the loss of soulsAre many that blindly followSo as You give me a dreamThat will help me hold onto Your hopeI walk brazenly in Your strengthTo face the place where reality roams