I'm alive!So, as most of you know, I went through a pretty rough time and posted some journals about it. I decided to take a break from everything for a while, which (unfortunately) meant taking a break from poetry. In fact, I stayed off deviantART most of the time. And now, I'm back I'm happier than ever, too <3 Thanks to everybody for being so kind and faithful through everything. I love all of you so much!
Music ...Have you ever took a blade to your wrist?Have you been skipping meals?We're gonna try something new today...How does that make you feel?~ Hospital For Souls - Bring Me The Horizon<3 stay strong... i love you all.
My existence...Well I guess it's time for me to rant about my failures in life. Sounds like a good thing to do. I'm going to number my failures in the past 24 hours to help you realize how dumb i truly am. Enjoy, oh glorious watchers of mine.1) I woke up this morning and saw my shadow on the wall. Naturally, I panic. Naturally, I have a muscle spasm because i freaked out. So I punched myself in the face. Strike one for Mikki.2) After this beautiful moment of my own abuse toward my face, I walk into the kitchen to get food. I find food, I eat food. I enjoyed the food. And suddenly A;JBG;KSDJGB;SKDJGBS. my fork scrapes the plate. One of the worst sounds, i'd say. So I started choking on my last bite of burrito. I survived, though. Wooooohoo.3) i ran into a door. A closed, clearly visible door.4) I nearly dropped my glasses in the toilet. I didn't, because of my SUPER FAST NINJA SKILLS OF DOOM THAT YOU WOULD NOT BELIEVE THE AWESOMENESS OF, but i almost did. and that's bad enough.5) i also fell asle
Maybe.Fist fights and battles in my headI'll always remember what you said...The day you lied.Glass shattered all over the dirtI'll always remember your last words...The day you died.I could have saved you, love.I should have saved you, love.I would have saved you, love...Then maybe we could both still beAlive.
Where Reality RoamsIn between the dreams I dreamAnd the hopes that lead me soIs a place where I have to beBut is a place I rather not goIt's where the blaze of gunsAnd the smell of deathAre constant in the mindWhere the grumbling of hungerAnd the dryness of tonguePlague the human kindIn between the hopes I hopeAnd the dreams that lead me onIs a place I have to seeBut a place I wish it was notIt's where the silky wordsAnd the flash of a bladeCreep in the high shadowsWhere damnation of manyAnd the loss of soulsAre many that blindly followSo as You give me a dreamThat will help me hold onto Your hopeI walk brazenly in Your strengthTo face the place where reality roams
Try Harder"What are you doing?" "I- I am dan-sing." "You're dancing?" "Yeah! Dan-sing!" "... It doesn't look like dancing. You're going to have to try really hard if you want to dance right." "Try... hard?" "Yeah. Do you want to be a dancer when you grow up?" "Dan-sir?" "It's where you dance all the time and people pay to come see you dance." "Dance... all time?" "Yeah, so do you want to be a dancer?" "Yes! Yes, I want to be dan-sir!" "Then try hard to learn to dance, okay?" "Okay! I will be dan-sir when I grow up!"~~~ ~~~
Death of SilenceAll these sounds,making it hard to focus.But what is that I hear?On my brain's door, it pounds.BANG! BANG!And then a mutter.What could this be,and what wordsdid the mysterious mutter sing?I reach for the knob,turn it ever so slowly,in fear of what might show.What is it fate will bring?In a fit of bravery,I throw open my mind.Yet nothing stands on its stoop.The very moment I walk awayI hear it again.Should I answeror shall I ignoreand see if the mutter will stay?I leave the mutterhoping it is nothing.I start for the thought hallbut something isn't right.The long and narrowseems to be changed.Doors and windowsnever before seen.I don't like this.My mind has a new scene.And as I continuethrough thesenewly arranged thoughtsThe mutter follows my steps.Knocking louder and louder,I feel the slamming of the doorin my shivering knees.I grow more startled,as I heard it more and more.I begin to run,trapped in my own thought.Open a new dooronly to seea si