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Schizophrenia

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MikkiMarie

Published: Dec 31, 2012

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Smile.
Laugh.
Run
Faster.
Faster.
Stop.

"What are you doing?"
Trying to escape.
"Nothing."

Look behind you.
Are they there?
Shh.

Shut up.

Don't.
Say.
Anything.

"What's wrong?"
You'll never understand it.
"Never mind."

Scream.
Scream louder.
Rip your hair out.
Cover your ears.

"Calm down."
I can't.
"I'm sorry."

They want you to die.
They're out for you.
Shut the door.
Lock it.
Unlock it.
Lock it again.
Hide.
Shh.

"Are you okay?"
I'm dying.
"I'm fine."

You'll never make it.
Freeze.
Fall to the ground.
Cry.
Cry harder.

Stop.

"What are you doing?"
Dying.
"What are you going through?"
Torture.
"What's wrong with you?"
Everything.

... "I don't know."

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I have something close to schizophrenia, but not quite.
I just decided to title it something different than my last poem, about Bipolar xD

Thanks for reading, comment maybe?

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Swanbrother

Feb 16, 2019

I’ve prob fav’d this 3-4 different times by now switching accounts and I re add it every time because I found it however long ago and still think about it all the time.

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