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I'm just going to stop trying.
Because you'll never understand.
I carry dreams inside a fist
While you hold cruelty in your hand.
I'm just going to stop trying.
Because I've been through so much hate
I've been through knives and ropes and scars
And wounds and blood and blades.
I'm just going to stop trying.
Because through all I've had to do..
The ignorance of people
Is the worst thing I've been through.
I'm just going to stop trying.
And you want to know the truth?
The reason I've stopped trying
Is because of those like
LEARN ABOUT DEPRESSION, before you start yelling at people for having it.
Before you start judging it.
Ignorance hurts just as bad sometimes.

Something I wrote pretty fast. Comments? I know I write a lot about depression, just.. it's a serious thing.

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MyChemicalMinecraft Featured By Owner Sep 15, 2013
This is true. It describes me perfectly
coolcats101 Featured By Owner Sep 12, 2013
I can relate
TracyStromberg Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
oceanstar932 Featured By Owner Aug 4, 2013
awesome. just awesome 
Sienipilvi Featured By Owner Jul 20, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
This is so beautiful and true C:
Jesserfly Featured By Owner Jul 11, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Ah, so true.... most people, including my mother, don't understand depression or suicide attempts. Very nice poem, I can relate 100%.
SockAngel143 Featured By Owner Jul 7, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
I loved this! Really moved me. Keep up the great work!
HardcoreDeadPrincess Featured By Owner Jul 4, 2013  Student General Artist
That's exactly how I feel right now. Great Job this was very well written, and easy to relate to.
PankakeCarnivor Featured By Owner Jul 4, 2013  Student
Story of my life. Lets keep trying, though, for something better:)
shshinshel573 Featured By Owner Jul 4, 2013
I don't think I've ever found such an honest poem in my fucking life. This is perfection :)
Bruenjes Featured By Owner Jul 4, 2013
Please donīt stop trying ever.

Iīm touched.
MikkiMarie Featured By Owner Jul 4, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I won't. :) I'll last as long as I can.

Thank you :)
hatsunemikufan108 Featured By Owner Jun 30, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
at school, I had a teacher who was SO MEAN! she didn't treat me equal, I was a "attention seeker"
I got kicked out of GIFTED because I was so behind in m,ath, why? HER FAULT "oh, you need help, your SO SMART ill ignore you and let you suffer from me being an a**" darkest time of my LIFE. cried every day, every hour. for one school year, I didn't even FINISH that year.
Midnightbiter Featured By Owner Jun 30, 2013
Ik! I hate it when people yell at me for cutting when they do the same thing! IT HELPS. It helped you. And it helped me. People need to stop being judge mental hipacrites. :/
deathlydreamer Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I think this is beautiful, and on behalf of the human race, I'd like to apologise for the ignorant c***s leaving hateful comments on your poetry.
Please keep writing. The things you say give me hope.
Maruuko Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
wanna talk. I suffered from depression for the better part of 2 years. I could help...if you want.
Alphabeta97 Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2013  Hobbyist Writer

I've dealt with depression on a 3rd person perspective, by helping others, since I've never really been depressed severely myself. I've been raised in such a way that depression is the man in the corner... almost; and that I rarely visit the guy. I know, that analogy was terrible. However..., the big however... I've been raised in a way of thinking. You've heard of Yin and Yang? Black and White? Start and End? Yes? The never-ending cycle that nature goes through in order to maintain balance. 

Well, allow us to take this on. The aspect that there is an end to happiness and to depression and that both take their course in life over and over again. Now, note that I used the word severely when I mentioned that I've been depressed. So, then, when I have been mildly depressed, I've taken into consideration the cycle of nature that my depression will soon end and that it will return with happiness at one time or another. You can't have a lifetime of depression - nature would frown upon that - nature would try to make you happy.

Now, knowing this, and knowing that depression will eventually be surmounted by the proverbial iron boot of happiness, you can be happy, because depression is not eternal. Sure, depression is harsh, but to suffer now is to have pleasure later. So, to nature and this cycle, suffer with depression to have pleasure of happiness in the end and allow nature to take it's course.

If you know this, you will have the upper hand against depression!

By the way nice poem =)

Alphabeta97 Featured By Owner Jun 30, 2013  Hobbyist Writer

I would write it a second time, and with greater enthusiasm, because I know, with my way of thinking, that when I get depressed I know that there will be pleasure at the end of it. There always has been a positive to my negative, without a doubt. What? Life is an endless ball of awakening destruction that has no U turn or no left or no right or no stop? It can't be. I couldn't accept that, and with anyone that has my way of thinking wouldn't accept it either. Now, I'll stop and leave it out there. 

Also, read what I wrote. It was how I was raised to think when I had depression or had a similar experience of depression. I wish I was raised in the author's point of view to know how people deal with depression in their mindset, and obviously it's a bad experience. No doubt about it.

All I was doing was offering knowledge and understanding from my upbringing to those who had different upbringings but weren't learned what I learned. At least, as the probable open-minded person you are, consider such an alternative that negative implies positive and positive implies negative. Depression implies happiness and vice versa. 

I'm not trying to sell you the idea or that what I jut said is the solution, but, in fact, play with it. Criticise it, test it, imagine it.

And by what I've just said, I didn't mean to offend anyone and I'm deeply sorry in advance if I did. 

Imnurhest Featured By Owner Jun 30, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
It's eternal as long as there's a chemical imbalance in your brain. If your hormones get horribly imbalanced,I'd like to see you write that a second time.
racerman56 Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
Good for you girl, ignorant people need to stop and think, how would they feel if it were them with depression and were being told just get I've it.
It may have been written quickly but it is still a good piece.
SilviaMarti Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
It could be quickly written but's not bad :D
StellaStarfish Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2013  Student General Artist
EXACTLY. Thank you so much for writing this.
CecilliaBelleLacroix Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
This is beautiful. I feel like i can connect to it.
Cricky-Vines Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I really like this :)
UnluckyNumberXIII Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Eloquent and simple but so very touching. Thank you for writing this.
DestroyErase Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2013  Professional Artist
Should probably just kill yourself.
MikkiMarie Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
This is just a poem :)
But I hope you know that those words would have hurt almost anyone who meant something like this. And I hope you know, that hurting someone could lead to more than just pain. It could lead to suicide.
And I hope you know... because of that, you would be an indirect murderer, in a way. So congrats on that.
Perhaps thinking before speaking is a bit more intelligent than you'd imagine.
Sorry for snapping.
DestroyErase Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2013  Professional Artist
How many people do you think who have committed suicide regretted their decision afterwards? The answer is 0. 100% satisfaction guarantee. Pretty astounding, no?

In all seriousness though, people who are depressed should either learn to control the nagging presence of futility and emptiness, or they should just off themselves and be done with it. Sure, people can medicate and relieve the downs for a little while, but it doesn't cure depression. Only self control can stop depression in its tracks effectively.

This is just how it is. The only reason depressed people don't kill themselves is because they're selfish and fear the end of their ego.
Dragonyxie Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Sorry, but I don't think there's any reason for you to be sorry for snapping. It's a serious issue. I know a lot of "indirect murderers" who aided to suicides. I strongly dislike them.

In my opinion, there's no reason any person off of the street should say something like that. If DestroyErase was face to face with you, do you think they would have said that? Would I be saying this if I was face to face with you?... Wait, yeah, I might say something along these lines... Lol.
But my point is: Why do people suggest things like that over the internet to people who may be triggered very easily and could potentially end their lives without hesitation? I see no point besides the love of spreading hate and causing anxiety and/or suffering.

I love this poem, I felt it. Thank you for posting this. :)

I hope you see my point and aren't offended by it.

D :)
DestroyErase Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2013  Professional Artist
No, I really would tell her or anyone else to kill themselves. You value your existence too much to think it would matter even remotely if you just blew your brains right out of your fucking skull lol.
Dragonyxie Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Oh? If it was somebody you loved very much who was diagnosed with Depression, would you tell them to kill themselves?

Believe it or not, every life on Earth has value. No matter how many people go against it, every time somebody picks up a gun, a blade, a noose, a little of Earth's value is gone. A lot of the people related to people I know who committed suicide were in the process of conserving wildlife and helping the Earth and good things like that before they offed themselves. That dropped Earth's value down more than it should have, and they offed themselves because people with attitudes such as yours told them things that triggered their depression.

I'm sorry if I cause offense, because I in no way mean to, but even if you were to off yourself, you, some of that value that Earth has would go down. It would matter if you blew your brains out. Just as it would matter if I blew my brains out, or if anybody here decided their life wasn't worth living.

DestroyErase Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2013  Professional Artist
I would lol.

No, believe it or not, you're talking out of your fucking ass. Nobody is inherently valuable to this world outside of their kin, who, same as any other life form on Earth, are also objectively worthless. Conserving wildlife and "helping" the planet does nothing in a long term scale of time. The world would already be fixing itself if we all stopped existing and gave it a break. Your friends and friends by extension were weak and succumbed to the reality they are broken and failures. They deserve death if they cannot handle being alive.
Dragonyxie Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Really, now? Have you ever even stopped being ignorant to the problems of others for once and stepped into their shoes? I'm going to go on the assumption that you're over the age of eighteen, and say that somebody your age(From my assumption) who is properly educated on morals and value should have more sense than yourself. It really does appall me to see that anybody, no matter what walk of life they come from, can believe that all humans are useless.

Nobody deserves death, in my opinion, until they have lived a long and full life. Have you ever experienced depression? Have you ever even experienced a nagging sadness? Because I have, and probably most of the Deviants on this website have, too. The way I take your last sentence is "If you're sad for a month, than you can go jump in a hole to die." and "If something unbearably bad happened, like your father dying, and you can't get over it, go off yourself, you pathetic excuse for a living being."

Listen, guy, I don't talk out of my ass. A small part of my opinion is based on a religion that I've never really followed. (Because I was born with two Catholic parents, I'm a default Catholic and I can't change that.)

Maybe if I ever by any chance see you or walking down the street, and you're going through depression, I can put the whole "I told you so" act on. Because you know what? If you ever get diagnosed with depression, maybe you will kill yourself. And maybe somebody else like you will laugh at your existence, and think about how funny death is, and what a laughable topic suicide caused by depression is. If you were a ghost condemned to stay on the Earth, you would see them laughing at the idea that you ever deserved to live, and maybe you may not be able to think, but maybe you could feel. Have emotions. And maybe depression follows ghosts condemned to Limbo. Who knows? But if it did, I would want you to just try and tell ghosts that were once like me or you how you felt about that. I want to know how angry it would make you to have people you didn't even know or have any connection to laugh at your death, and not give a shit about whether or not you believed you had any more right to the Earth than the rest of us.

Just because somebody's been depressed, they're broken? Lol. That cracked me up. I want to know how many suicides you've aided to because of your words. You really should start putting yourself in others' shoes. You have no idea how damn hard sadness and depression are to get through. You really don't. Maybe you should get that checked.

Again, my opinion, and I mean no offense. This is based off of the nearly nothing I know about you.

Dragonyxie Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
"Nobody deserves death, in my opinion, until they have lived a long and full life."
"Until they have lived a long and full life."
"Lived a long and full life."

I'm sorry, but I disagree with your views on the value of humans completely. I believe we are all worth something.

Just because they may be entitled to off themselves, doesn't mean people like you need to help them kill themselves. I believe it's cruel to help people take their lives, and by helping, I mean telling them it's okay and they should because they're worthless.

I'm alive right now because I don't make friends with people with your attitude. If I had, I would be dead. I'm thankful for my choice.

No offense again,
Sorry for the senselessness in the post lol I am tired. It's past midnight and I just got back from the movies. Funeral to attend. //shot

Goodnight, maybe I'll post something that makes more sense and is longer tomorrow.

DestroyErase Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2013  Professional Artist
Take your petty sense of self out of the equation and you'll see that as far as the Earth is concerned, you only exist for the sake of dying. Nature isn't concerned with our well being, and if we were to vanish off the face of the Earth nothing that we have done cannot be undone within a few thousand years. We are, in the purest sense, useless individually.

Nobody deserves death, in my opinion
Senseless idealism. Not only does everyone deserve death, we're inherently guaranteed to succumb to it. Nobody has the right to live, it's just that we simply do. As I've already said, nature is only concerned that you die and your body goes back to the Earth. You, as the individual, do not matter, in the same sense that everyone else on this planet does not matter.

Just because somebody's been depressed, they're broken?
Are you really trying to say a mental disorder doesn't make a person broken?

I have only aided in helping people getting over how pitiful they are by telling them that they should spend their time on this Earth doing the things they like to do before they die. I've told them that they are worth nothing and that it is up to them to enjoy their time here while they can.

You have no idea how damn hard sadness and depression are to get through. You really don't.
Except I do lol. I've been diagnosed with depression in the past and I cope with it to this day. The only difference between myself and anyone else suffering from the same condition is just that I know how to control it and remain objective during the nagging sadness. I know how it feels to be down to the point of questioning your point on this planet, and if some people find suicide as the most appropriate escape from their depression, then they're perfectly entitled to off themselves.
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spyro-spirit-jak Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2013
Love this. Applicable to even more than depression <3
angelgirlartist Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Very true and well written
allyamezola Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Oh my gosh, sad but also fantastic!
TaeYoongJoongSa Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2013
I don't know who you think the bad guy is and maybe you were surrounded by or picked on by lots of bad people in your life

but don't think of me as one. I'm NOT the bad guy ... I may have an attitude and maybe I haven't been the nicest ... but I'm NOT the bad guy

maybe a bit of an antihero but not the bad guy
TaeYoongJoongSa Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2013
and what's your idea of cruel? The people who tried to kick you down and bully you OR the guy who tried to help you?

I CAN BE a really nice guy at times BUT there are times in life you have to toughen up and don't take shit and that's my attitude

and that attitude IS WHAT SAVE PEOPLE LIKE ME so I DON'T become people like you

I don't know your whole story ... but "I've been there" or some of it .... the bullies, the depression ... lots of hard shit in the past and I came a long
way to get here. I don't know your whole story ... but I know I had what it took to get here
MarioGamer96 Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2013
This is so true, and its sad to know that people will judge you for having it. Its really sadening to know how cold hearted people can be
blwinteler Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2013
Wow. This was just shared with me because I am so ready to stop trying. I don't know why I bother to keep trying. You express that feeling very well.
Never stop trying. Ignorance is everywhere and if the ones who are not like that give up,this world is doomed.
AstroGirl123 Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Depression is so harsh, you made me realize that.
In-The-Night-Skies Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2013  Student Writer
This is where I'm at right now.
And man.. It's ridiculously hard to climb over this wall.
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