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You want to end it?
Think of this.
You write your suicide note... And you set it on the table.
You take your razor, your silver, two inch razor. And you start to slide it across your wrist. You barely feel a thing. After all, the pain of life is more than the pain of the blade.
And you take that belt you never wore, the one that was too tight, the one you starved yourself to fit into. And you wrap it once, twice around your neck... and you pull it tight.
Barely breathing, you put the ends of the belt on something to hold you up.
Something to strangle you.
Something to kill you.

And you die.

And that's the end, right?
Wrong.
So, so wrong.

Your younger brother, the four year old little boy that you loved so much. He walks into your room, only to find you hanging there, lifelessly. Only to find you with dried tears on your pale face. Only to find your suicide note... the one you left right before you died.

And so he runs in tears to your mother. And she reads the note, barely able to breathe from the thought of it.
And soon, the word gets around. You committed suicide. You're done. You're gone. It's over.

The girl who told you that you were fat... she admits that you were beautiful. She felt so bad, she became anorexic.
The boy who told you that you were ugly... he admits that you were special. He felt so bad, he began to cut himself.
The person who told you that you were stupid... he admits he was jealous. He felt so bad, he slipped into a depression due to guilt.

Your younger brother grows up, blaming himself for your suicide every day. Your mother cries at night until she falls asleep, that is, if she sleeps at all. Your father has a meltdown that causes him to turn into an alcoholic. Your sister attempted a suicide because she blamed herself, too.

Everybody misses you. Everybody wants you back.

Now let's go back to right now.
you think you want to end it?
That razor. That silver, two inch razor. I know, sometimes the pain of life is worse than the pain brought to you by the blade.
But do you know how many people need you?
Do you know how many people love you?
Do you know how many people want you to stay?
Someone is thinking of you.

So think of them, too.


Stay strong.

And never.
Give.
Up.
Not a poem....

Just a rant...
Just a story.

Just don't give up you guys. I'll cry :(

I love you all.

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FiftyShadesOfFlutter Featured By Owner Aug 28, 2014  Student
I've had my plenty share of pain from my life,ecspecially my freshmen year...it was so awful and felt never ending...things like this made me not give in.
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Unisis-2-in-1-beauty Featured By Owner Jan 30, 2014  Student General Artist
this bout made me cry...
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nvm...it did...

thanks for another awesome poem/rant or whatever you classify it as. its good. makes people think. well done. love ya, keep on writing!
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vlancii Featured By Owner Oct 21, 2013
You're work makes me cry a lot!  Beautiful!!!
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hothead14 Featured By Owner Sep 7, 2013
I have not had a great time the past few months. Today was one of the worst... And this made me cry again at the thought...
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ooOSwiftnessOoo Featured By Owner Sep 6, 2013
I've never suffered any of this stuff, but I worry for people who do. This is beautiful, and holds a strong message.
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FriesianKiss Featured By Owner Aug 31, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
One word. Beautiful.
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Annika-san Featured By Owner Aug 26, 2013  Student Writer
it's thing like this that save me
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Chamerona Featured By Owner Aug 20, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you so much for making this poem :iconcryforeverplz: *hugs u* :iconbrohugplz*
its a good thing my attempt of suiscide did not work.
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WhySoSeriousFriends Featured By Owner Aug 17, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
The critique I wrote on 'Hello Darling' applies so well to this too. I cannot thank you enough.
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EkimAdonihs1 Featured By Owner Aug 16, 2013
I'm crying! Just. Shut up and give me a tissue. 
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xlntwtch Featured By Owner Aug 16, 2013   Writer

This is now Featured at the club below. You can hit that icon and look for it under the links "Favorites" and/or "Featured."

 

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Chapawee13 Featured By Owner Aug 15, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I never have suicidal thoughts (I'm rarely even negative), but this is both true and beautiful. *cries*
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Left-Handed-Artist Featured By Owner Aug 14, 2013  Student General Artist
This is beautiful. *cries*
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Yoru-Sasayaki Featured By Owner Aug 12, 2013   General Artist
This is... I don't even have words. It's so true, and it's hard to hear, hard to read, hard to admit. Sometimes, though, this is the only way to stop people from committing suicide. Thank you for writing this. I know some people that need to see it.
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StellaStarfish Featured By Owner Aug 11, 2013  Student General Artist
This is beautiful. It really puts life into perspective
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Cr4zyW45t3d Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2013
Don't know if I told you, but I think your works have such a great depth of emotion and brutal honesty that I wish all young people could read them!
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mizuki28 Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2013  Hobbyist Artist
I love you so much for posting this its amazing
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hefeigal Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Amazing. Absolutely amazing.

Each line conveys such emotion and raw feeling, and the way it's structured simply drives the words into the reader's heart. 
Phenomenal work. :clap: 
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Angel-Peach-Blossom Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2013
This packed a lot of emotion and I have to say that it was very inspirational! It made me hurt on the inside, and that's a good thing here since you are trying to make someone realize that this isn't such a good idea.

It actually reminds me of something I've seen quite recently. In this story there is a girl who wants to die. She thinks she is ugly, fat, and her mom got mad at her for failing the other day. She wasn't happy when a doctor was able to save her life.

This same doctor, who also learned a lesson some time ago, told her a story once how he wanted to die, believing he was the one who killed his own cat when he was younger. His mother slapped him, said that she was ashamed of him, and the cat was too, and most of all, he should be for even thinking it.

The doctor then asks the girl about who else is living with her right now. Her family, if she has any pets, any friends? Could she say to their face that she wanted to die? No she couldn't. Which was why she wanted to be alone.

The doctor then hands the girl a mirror, and tells her to look at the girl he sees there, and says to tell her that 'I want to die.' She couldn't even finish saying that, and ended up crying. The doctor admitted that he wasn't able to do say it either, and that she should try to make that girl happy instead of worrying about others.

And it sparked within her the will to live again.

Sorry about that, but this kinda reminded me of that. I felt like you were that doctor telling your own version of it, and while we might think suicide is the answer, all the pain it brings with it really isn't.

Very well played!
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TracyStromberg Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
That was so inspirational. It almost made me cry! Grr. 
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Cr4zyW45t3d Featured By Owner Aug 8, 2013
AMAZING!
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Pagan-Moon-Dreamer Featured By Owner Aug 7, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
I can see who this would make me think twice about doing something like that since I wouldn't want my newphu to find me dead like that.
But for some the pain of life is just to much.
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animallover2798 Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2013
There's a power in this that's hard to find. This is more than a meaningless poem and words on a page... This is life. This is real. 
Amazing. 
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Alicelisabeth Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2013
Omg... i never even thought of commiting suicide. I mean, i have thought how it would be, but have absolutely no reasons to end my life. On the contrary.
But this... This is perfect. This makes me realize how beautiful life is. It makes me wanna live, and go out, and oh girl you made my day :heart:

i would never want to hurt my family like that. Not that i am criticizing some people, but i think suicide is a bit selfish. Ok, I'm young, and i haven't seen much of what life has to offer, i haven't been through many things, but seriously: just the thought that someone of my family or friends would kill him/herself... it breaks my heart. :crying:And i don't want to break anyones heart. :tears:
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JullekEliseus Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
just beautiful
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iamfelixroy Featured By Owner Aug 5, 2013
I think people commits suicide because they don't want to prolong the pain their going through, but according to Shakespeare " Feel the pain until it hurts no more".
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kinkyDivers Featured By Owner Aug 5, 2013
Thats Why its better to disappear before...
Its not giving up on life that hurts 
Its when life gives on you....

And some times it hurts too much live for everyone else

also Just a rant
Waaaah!
 
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kinkyDivers Featured By Owner Aug 5, 2013
After reflecting I do appogize for my negative reaction.
All you folks out there always keep these things in mind.
and as a reminder 

YOU ARE NOT ALONE.....

write out your problems----talk to anyone you can---- as you can see there are plenty of us here. 

Reach out before giving up
Heart 
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Luna-puppy Featured By Owner Aug 4, 2013
I've had so much pain in my life... Reading this... It gives me hope for staying strong... Thank you <3
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TheFabulousHeather Featured By Owner Aug 4, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
Read this on Tumblr and it still makes me cry every time I read it. 
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MikkiMarie Featured By Owner Aug 5, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
? But I wrote this D: how is it on tumblr?!
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sockzrocker Featured By Owner Aug 4, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Wow. I wish my 7 year old sister read this before she commit suicide. No, I disagree! Waaaah! Waaaah! :( (Sad) :( (Sad) Grr.  R.I.P Christi B.





*starts to cry*
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MikkiMarie Featured By Owner Aug 6, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I'm so sorry :/
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GhostOfTheEmptyGrave Featured By Owner Aug 5, 2013
You have my feelings. Remember her for who she was, not for how she went away.Hug 
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Gosomi Featured By Owner Aug 4, 2013
oh no that is terrible... stay strong!
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iMariposa Featured By Owner Aug 4, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
This. Was. Beautiful. I can't even say how good this was. Is it okay if I share this with some friends?
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MikkiMarie Featured By Owner Aug 5, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Go ahead :)
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Franitz Featured By Owner Aug 4, 2013
Lol
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RavenDehartFox Featured By Owner Aug 3, 2013
So beautiful while so saddening at the same time. Waaaah!  Always care for those who suffer. Hug 

I only felt suicidal one time due to being neglected and shy like I have no purpose to the world but I still try to be social.  :) (Smile)
 
 This will be a great influence to peoples lives I am sure of it.  :D (Big Grin) 
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kitteneyes207 Featured By Owner Aug 3, 2013
I never thought of it that way before.
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Gothfoxgirl Featured By Owner Aug 3, 2013
wow
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VincentRavenYaoi Featured By Owner Aug 3, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
I had a friend commit suicide, and yes, I admit it, the thought had occurred to me more than once. But what you wrote, those reasons. They are the only thing that let me hang on to the world. And now that I have experienced the lost of a precious friend, I understand the words that once felt meaningless to me. This. This right here holds so much truth, it's not even funny. 
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thisnerdgirl Featured By Owner Aug 3, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
This is truly beautiful. It brought tears to my eyes. This is amazing and inspiring and a masterpiece in itself.
Bravo.
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SonPanssj4 Featured By Owner Aug 3, 2013  Hobbyist Artist
I almost did suiside. But thought of the people who cared about me. This story touched my heart.
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imichaotheechidna Featured By Owner Aug 3, 2013  Hobbyist Artist
Vaguely familiar...but I get it.
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Kijinii Featured By Owner Aug 3, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
:glomp: That's so wonderful and so right! I hope this will help some people!
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Leoispic Featured By Owner Aug 3, 2013
sadly but it is good
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monet2002 Featured By Owner Aug 3, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I've never wanted to do this... I'm not even pretty, I don't have any friends, But I won't do this to myself. I'm one of the most imperfect people I know, but.... I wouldn't. I know the value of life better than anyone in my family.

The night I was born with a minor birth defect that could've killed me, the doctor knew something was wrong.... he saved my life, and even if I don't know him, he's the one who saved my life, and I'm not going to loose it just because of other people's actions.

I promise.
I swear.
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fynnio Featured By Owner Aug 3, 2013
what if no one misses you? sometimes you want to care someone who isnt family related. someone who really loves YOU. im suffering from depression, i was away like the last 6month. now i write my "friends" at facebook, i didnt see any of them the last weeks or month, maybe 1day. they didnt even answer, like wtf is wrong with people? it fucking hurts...well but your story is true anyways. and you/i still think of this anytime.
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MapleKitty34 Featured By Owner Aug 3, 2013  Student General Artist
I've stopped roughly 6 people from committing suicide, and steering countless others away. Do you want to know the secret? The secret to saving the ones you care for? The secret is....


.... Showing them you love them, and that you care.
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