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There's a story I'd like to tell,
A story of a girl who was diagnosed.
Diagnosed with a terrifying thing,
Something that would threaten her life for years to come.
Something that she could never escape,
No matter how she ran,
No matter how she struggled.

This diagnosis was a horrific thing to the girl,
Although, not surprising at all.
The symptoms had swallowed her for days,

Months of this thing inside of her.

This thing that we call

There are people who tell her,
"You're only sad."

However, that isn't the case.
See, she was never diagnosed with sadness.
Everyone knows sadness.
She was never diagnosed with emotion.
Everyone knows emotion.
She was never diagnosed with temporary heartbreak,
Broken dreams,
Everyone knows all those things.

She was diagnosed with something much, much worse.

Since then, she's suffered with such a terrible thing...
Not temporarily,
But for days..

Months of this thing inside of her.

This thing
That we call

Second post today. But i felt this needed to be said.

Depression is a life threatening disorder. Some would say it isn't.
Well... depression, in bad cases, can lead to suicide. And if that's not life threatening, I don't know what is.

Comments are appreciated :)

If anyone is suffering through a rough time, has depression, is having a bad day or anything that causes emotional pain.. feel free to note me here on deviantART or message me on facebook :)
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Love you guys!! Stay strong <3 you're worth life and even so much more. :)

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21iwuv Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2014  Student Artist
This is true no one can prevent depression or end it.
evettejo Featured By Owner May 12, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Takes one to know one. Your words are beautiful. Its wonderful how you are able to touch the hearts of your followers.
lilmegs17 Featured By Owner Feb 21, 2014
So true. The meds, the doctors, and everyone around sometimes nothing can help. No on really understands if they have never gone through it themselves. Thank u for this
Unisis-2-in-1-beauty Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2014  Student General Artist
this feels like you know me!
this girl


i have been diagnosed with depression for as long as i can remember. i've been taking medicine for it for the same. but it never goes away. not really. the medicine just makes it quieter. But the doctors say it should be silent on my medicine, so they keep increasing the dosages. sometimes i run out...sometimes i forget...sometimes i cry for hours...sometimes i want to cut again...sometimes i want to, well, you know, end it...sometimes i need someone to talk me through it... sometimes i need someone to calm me down...sometimes i need someone to take the knife/scizzors/glass/basically any sharp object out of my hands...sometimes...sometimes i just need a friend...

when i read your poems i feel like you are a very good one indeed....thank you for being alive and here and awesome and writing such beautiful writings...
Bytebullet Featured By Owner Dec 11, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Hope you are doing all right now and in the days to come. Stay strong.
Leonike Featured By Owner Dec 6, 2013  Student Interface Designer
just felt like saying Game Grumps helps a lot of people with depression. if you know Egoraptor, Jontron, Ninja Sex Party, and/or RubberNinja (or RubberRoss), check it out, and just have a grand ol' time watching some good folks play video games. i'm not much of a person to watch let's plays but Game Grumps is something i really like and helped me with my own ordeals as well. 
just an idea

Goof Troop, Pokemon Emerald, and Drakkhen are good ones to start with (except maybe save Drakkhen for after you've grown accustomed to some Groomps)
SuperBeanWorld Featured By Owner Dec 3, 2013
Depression is one of those things you simply cannot explain to another person. It's difficult to even understand in the first place, even though you're experiencing the maddening shroud first hand. I found that accepting it as just another part of me and my personality traits as opposed to some evil thing taking root inside me, pushing me towards the inevitable end, that helped a lot. If anyone reads this: keep fighting the good fight, your only opponent is yourself, and you're never as repulsive as you think you are.
Invenia Featured By Owner Dec 3, 2013
I have read many books and poems about depression, trying to meet me there in those words, but this you have discribed is the most accurate about me, exactly the way I feel. You have no idea how happy you made me. Thank you :) (Smile) 
spkdog Featured By Owner Dec 2, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
This is so true, and definitely needed to be said. The same can be said about anxiety disorders. "Oh, you're just unnecessarily nervous, get over it and move on" that's what people have told me. They don't understand how it's not that simple.

If I decided to use this for a school project, would that be ok? I'd credit you.
MikkiMarie Featured By Owner Dec 2, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Go ahead :)
spkdog Featured By Owner Dec 2, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Thanks :) We're making films based on poems in Media Arts.
FallenArchetype Featured By Owner Nov 30, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Ah depression is a pain. I struggle with it on and off. People like you who want so badly to be able to help are what always helps me through when it comes back around. :) Keep doing what you're doing cuz it WILL help someone.
silversongwriter Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2013
I don't know if I'm depressed or not, nor do I care to know. If it's basically sadness that persists without reason, than I guess I can understand. Is it like the difference between a fear and a phobia.

Fear=logical, happens for a reason ex. getting hit by a car, or getting robbed

Phobia=illogical, result of psychological problem. ex. non-venomous spiders, close spaces
GracielovesYoshi222 Featured By Owner Nov 28, 2013
Depression is a serious thing. It's not just sadness, it's a monster that's inside of you and refuses to get out.
TimeTravellingCloset Featured By Owner Nov 28, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
Thank you. So much! I have friends who say I just need to take my "happy pills" and I will be normal. They don't understand that it will stay with you for the rest of your life.
white31 Featured By Owner Nov 27, 2013
I have lived with this all my life. Some of it, maybe most of it, is biological. I have a tumor on my pituitary, something the doctors only found when I was 68. Is this the only cause? Probably not, but it is, I think, a major one. Some people have been helped by magnetic therapy. Others may find that their adrenal glands are at the source of this problem (that's part of mine). Others I don't know, but don't give up. I've thought of suicide for years but never done it. I'm just as happy about that, because my uncle's suicide drove my mother to her death, and my suicide would lead to terrible pain on the part of those who love me. Suicide is a selfish thing.
wolf2225 Featured By Owner Nov 27, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Really nice :)
drunkenswallow Featured By Owner Nov 27, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
First I want to make shure that I don´t want to in any way critisize your or anyone´s else personal experience. IMHO my one depression is not something INSIDE me but as I found out after 40 years of having it. It is a thing between me and other persons or even something that is between me and myself. Its relational. Second I want to say that my depression is of course more than all the things you mention but also consists of it. Since I split it up in what is in the foreground in the moment may it be anger, hate, shame, sadness ... I can deal with it better.
thunderwolf1324 Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I once was a victim of suicide. I tried to take my life with a blade. People only said I was angry. They didn't know that I was more sad than angry. I didn't want them to know because I was scared of what they would do to me. I know that most of them would treat me like I'm precious, but I'm not. I know that I'm a tough nut and that if you hit me I punch you back. I'm a bit happier now, but I still have those dreams and thoughts about it, and think about whether I should ignore it, or finally go
HenekoMarie Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2013
Don't go! You're life has value! You said it yourself, your a tough nut. You don't have to agree with those thoughts. When they come up don't ignore them. Challenge them by thinking about all the reasons you know you want to live. Prove them wrong, and if you need someone else's to help you do that sometimes don't be afraid to talk to someone about it like a friend, or family member. I'm sure they would much rather have you talk to them about when you are feeling that way then take your own life, and if you feel you need go further and talk to a professional about it don't be ashamed too. Seeking help when you need it is one of the bravest things a person can do, and friends and family can't always provide you with the kind of help trained professional can. 
thunderwolf1324 Featured By Owner Dec 1, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
You know what? My grandmother said a similar thing yesterday when I talked to her. I will start talking to a trusted friend and I was told that I have a whole lifetime ahead of me. I have big dreams now,  which is join the Air Force when I'm done with school and become a great chemist. I still see me worst nightmares and hear what I never wanted to hear, but shit happens for a reason, so I've been told. The suicidal thoughts are still in my mind, but they are becoming weaker. I have so many people who care about me, but I chose to shut them out. I finally came out of my shell, but I still feel insecure. Maybe that's part of the contract with telling people lol.
HenekoMarie Featured By Owner Dec 1, 2013
I'm glade those thoughts are becoming weaker for you, and I know one day they will disappear for you all together. You're right it is normal to feel vulnerable when you first start telling people about personal struggles, but people that truly care about you won't judge you for having those thoughts. And it helps to remember your not the only person that feels that way sometimes, and to remind yourself that you have set goals you can be proud of. I'm happy to hear you're planning on becoming a chemist, and joining the Air force. I was in the Air force J.O.R.T.C. program at my school. I know my teachers never regretted enlisting. And I'm sure you can already imagine the pride you'll feel for serving the country. Good Luck to you in all your future plans. :) 
Sanluris Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
Yeah…it's bad.
People have told me, or people I know, "Get over it", or "Don't stress". Uh-huh. Some day I'm going to roll my eyes to someone's face. They likely just don't understand though.
Thanks for sharing this.
My family has a history of depression, so I know how it all can go down. :shrug:
Prowhiz Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2013
She needs Jesus. Depression is a lie... a mirage that fades away in the presence of Truth
Kokobutter Featured By Owner Nov 27, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Depression is real
It's not something that religion can do away with
It's a very real mental disorder
I would know because I suffer from it
There are very real treatments for it
And NONE of them are religion
And what you just said offends me
I used to be religious, and I was depressed then
Prowhiz Featured By Owner Nov 30, 2013
That'll be because you were religious. That's what religion does - bore people with empty practices "to try to please God". Indeed, religion is depressing. I've been there, so how about we don't talk religion. And that's what Jesus described as washing the outside of the cup and leaving the inside dirty. It's stunning that you guys would associate Jesus with religion... and His enemies at the time were religious men-But of course the world hates what it can't understand. Depression- I've been there, met people on the verge of suicide, and I know what it means. But I also know ignorance of truth is what keeps people there. Show them the truth and they'll come out of it so fast.
Kokobutter Featured By Owner Dec 1, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I don't always associate Jesus with religion
But I don't understand how "showing them the truth" will make them come out of it
Especially when an anti-depressant would do the same thing
HenekoMarie Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2013

When you try to cure mental illness with religion it just makes it worse, or at least that is what I've learn form my own personal experience. 

PROWHIZ: I understand that some people find strength in faith, and it can help them thought a lot of things. I know you're not trying to be a dick, and you just believe Jesus could help her. But like Kokobutter (awesome name btw) said depression' like cancer, is a real illness. And just like caner it needs proper treatment, and can't be cured with religion. 
Kokobutter Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I'm not the only one who's depression was worsened by religion. Thanks, I thought I was just more insane than I thought!

And thanks for calling my name awesome ^^
HenekoMarie Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2013
You're welcome, but I don't have depression. I have anxiety and Anthrophobia (fear of people), but the christen religion never helped me with either because I thought God wasn't answering my prays because I wasn't good enough. I was young and didn't know any better then to think that way. What I really needed was professional help, but my dad just kept pushing the religious thing on me and praying over me (he is a ex priest) and stuff instead of taking me to the Dr. like I ask him too. I get that when people tell people to pray about it they are just trying to help, and they really think praying can cure a mental illness. But they need to realize they are wrong, and spreading around lies like that can miss lead people suffering form mental illness and cause them a lot more pain. 
Kokobutter Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I also have anxiety, and chronophobia (fear of time) When I was religious, I started contemplating my past, and why things weren't getting better, and eventually I started to thing that God didn't care about me. Why else would God let me just keep having a life I hate and keep letting me be afraid and making me hear this ticking noise in my head that scares me so much, right? I never asked for help and still haven't, but when I was Christian I was worse. People to this day say they'll pray for me, and I know they're just trying to be kind, but I thought that they weren't doing the right thing by just praying. Yes, and thank you. I'm glad to know I'm not the only one who knows this, and I'm not the only one who's not afraid to share it. Thank you.
HenekoMarie Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2013
Your welcome. It's your choice rather to seek help or not. But I really think you may benefit form talking to a psychologist because a psychologist can teach you ways to help cope. But sometimes just talking to other people that suffer form similar things can help because can give you some good tips for handling them too.
I'm not sure if you already know why you are afraid of time, but If you don't I think if you tried to figure out why it may help you overcome the fear. 
One technique I've heard of for overcoming anxiety actually involves working yourself up and getting as stressed out as possible can get until you have an anxiety attack. Then instead of trying to calm yourself down you are suppose to try to keep having an attack for 10 mins. .Most people find that they can't hold on to those feelings for more the a few minutes. The artificial I read said it helps people because they become less afraid of having anxiety attacks, and that it helps them realize those negative feelings they have during an anxiety attack can't hurt them, and they will pass by sooner then they think.  However I can see how that technique wouldn't be for everyone, and I honestly haven't tried it myself because I would being around people I'm not comfortable with is what causes my attacks so I can't really cause myself to have an attack on my own. But I can say from personal experience eating better really helps me. And meditating helps me a lot to because just taking sometime each day to relax and take some deep breaths calms me down. I hope some of that can help you, and good luck with anything you are facing. It's been a pleasure talking to you.  
Kokobutter Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you. I think I will try some of those, I can see how they would help. Thank you very much, and it's been a pleasure to talk to you too!
RiseRedMoon Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I'm not sure if youre joking or not..
If you are.. Then make it a bit more obvious.
If not, then shame on you.
durandTHEcreator Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2013  Professional General Artist
no, she needs allah
FoxxyImpala Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
You speak to my heart.
I am this girl...
coffaefox Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
a very moving piece. Excellently done
softcell72 Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2013
Oh, I should also note that although I've been a member of DA for years, This is the only thing I've commented on in the last 2. it's important that people know depression isn't, and the hardships that accompany that.
softcell72 Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2013
for years I didn't know what was wrong with me. And although I had heard of depression somehow I never associated it

Mine was/is linked with certain times of the month and for YEARS I would get suicidal for 4-5 days a month. Now I know what causes it...and I can "talk myself down" tell myself that this is what it is and that these feelings aren't reality but my brain playing games with me.
it's funny that in all that time I never linked the cause until a doctor figured it out.
 I am..mostly functional now but it's been a long journey and I still fight it sometimes. I think knowing makes it easier.

I know that my reality isn't that bad, it's my brain telling me it is.
HenekoMarie Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2013
I have a friend that suffers from depression. She is young and I don't think she knows that in can be linked to certain times of the month. I didn't anyways. So thank you very much for sharing that information. I think I'll share it with her, maybe it will help her. 
The-Port-of-Riches Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2013  Hobbyist Filmographer
Depression actually ALMOST cost me my life on three separate occasions. I suffer from chronic depression as a diagnoses and have only recently started relapsing into suicidal thinking. I can only pull myself up by reminding myself everyday how far I've come, that my journey isn't complete; and I still have a long way to go. There's so much to do in life, and I will do my best to stop the depression for destroying my future.
Amebr Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2013
snowfeatherr Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Very well written. Thank you for writing this, as a girl with depression, it feels good to know that you care <3
ChibiCelloKing Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2013   General Artist
Same here
Seraphim210 Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2013  Student Filmographer
This was very well written, an excellent piece of work. One of my favorite writings here on dA - thank you for sharing. 

It ended powerfully, and definitely left a mark. One day I'll read this again. :heart: 
ebenbrooks Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
Thank you. I wish more people understood this. I hope at least one person, reading this, understand better.
Toetag001 Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2013
:hug: it's nice to know someone understands. Wonderfully written :)
TioShadow Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Nice words... While I'm not good at poetry to say anything technical, I think they sum up quite well the condition, the agony of it :x
For quite a while now, I think I may be depressed too... but at the same time I think it's just me wanting a simple answer to all my issues, to just find something to blame. And it makes me feel even worse :/
DarkMousySan Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2013
My mama has depression she got close to... well you know just a few weeks ago but shes okay now
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