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You think depression is a choice?
Well, honey,
Do you think I choose
To feel worthless?
To feel empty,
To feel sick to my stomach because I think too much?
To feel broken,
Constantly confused...
To feel hopeless,
Stressed out,
Angry at myself..
To feel suicidal, sometimes without knowing a reason?
To feel the need to lay in bed all day,
Without moving a muscle,
Because getting up would just make me want to fall back down?

Depression is never a choice.
You don't choose depression.
Depression chooses you.

We don't need ignorant people to choose us, too.
Please stay strong. <3 Anyone suffering from depression, bipolar disorder, schizophrenia, any mental disorder of ANY type.. please know that I am here for you. :) Note me if you're feeling down. Note me if you have to, i'm almost always here!! ^_^

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You can message me on facebook, too, if you're ever feeling broken <3

Comments are appreciated! :)
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sweetpeachartist12 Featured By Owner Jun 8, 2014  Student General Artist
this is really cool
JinglesKitty Featured By Owner Jun 5, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I feel like you feel me. My parents are always saying it's my fault I hurt myself an I choose to be depressed. They constantly act like I'm doing it for attention or for fun. They don't understand that I honestly do hate my self and my body and my mind and I seriously so want to get rid of it. This makes me feel better just feeling like someone understands that. 
evettejo Featured By Owner May 12, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Not many people understand depression and mental disorders. It's amazing how people simply cannot understand that others are broken. Hopefully someone that does not have this disorder say this.. and hopefully they learned something from your writing. 
Unisis-2-in-1-beauty Featured By Owner Jan 12, 2014  Student General Artist
yep. exactly. but still when im being depressed i get told to 'get up and get yourself together', 'come on stop being a drama queen', why are you so emo all the time?', 'whats wrong with you? why can't you just be happy sometimes?', and so on and such.

but anywho, thanks again for capturing the truth so well! ^u^
Love you and your poetry!~keep up the good work :)
anabelalima98 Featured By Owner Dec 15, 2013  Student Writer
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twerkOmatic Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Well actually, yes, you did choose to be like this.  No one controls your emotions.
psychosquatch Featured By Owner Oct 12, 2014
Really, twerkomatic? If that's how you feel about it maybe you should "choose" to lose both your hands in an accident, at least then you can't type this crap and add to the problem. Ignorance is a plague, and you make me sick.
DespondentAssassin Featured By Owner Jun 6, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
If no one controls your emotions, then neither do you - your comment is contradictory, and you're not helping anyone by saying that it's their fault when it just isn't.
TheAwkwardFangirl Featured By Owner Mar 30, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Wow. That was really ignorant. :|
tschingalamore Featured By Owner Jan 6, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
not sure if itīs really that simple ... gruss me
barish-ki-boond Featured By Owner Nov 30, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
That's like saying you chose to get strep.
psychofoxpickle Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2013  Student Digital Artist

I believe in depression, but I also believe in whining and not doing anything about it

I have no pity on someone who wont accept help or help themselves

redlipstick444 Featured By Owner Nov 25, 2013  Professional Writer
People talk to me like "don't be sad around me it makes me feel horrible."
I'm like
GreenEyedOkami Featured By Owner Nov 30, 2013  Student General Artist
I HATE it when my friends do that!
redlipstick444 Featured By Owner Dec 2, 2013  Professional Writer
IKR! It's like...I don't even wanna deal with them for a while after that. Like they weren't my real friends to begin with.
TinySparrowbird Featured By Owner Nov 25, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
its funny cause some one told me to stop moaning and get over it...
barish-ki-boond Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I'd turn and say, "tell that to my neurotransmitters"
TinySparrowbird Featured By Owner Nov 30, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
ha, i see what you did there 
barish-ki-boond Featured By Owner Nov 30, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Nemelex Featured By Owner Nov 20, 2013
Make love, not art then.
ForgottenSea Featured By Owner Nov 3, 2013
It resonated with my soul,your work is fascinating.I love what you put out,it's so honest and true.
LilyHeart101 Featured By Owner Nov 3, 2013
This is exactly what I feel too! :0

Hear, hear! Well said, mate. As a sufferer of depression I can definitely vouch for this. Like we have a choice in the matter at all. We don't. I certainly don't want to have these horrible feelings and thoughts. But it's like a disease, a monster.  

Thank you for highlighting this. Screw the haters and nay sayers of mental illnesses of all kinds. They have NO idea what they're talking about.

Well done yet again on a fine poem. :)
carmelitamontayafox Featured By Owner Nov 2, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
You took the words from my heart. Can I post this on facebook? I'll credit you. I just want my friends to know how I feel.
MikkiMarie Featured By Owner Nov 2, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Go ahead :)
carmelitamontayafox Featured By Owner Nov 3, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you :) By the way I love your poetry.
focusloser Featured By Owner Nov 1, 2013  Student General Artist
I won't say this poem describes me. I'm not often that depressed. 
However, I know too many people that think somehow if they put on a happy-face even when their feeling down. From my point of view, that is a flat out lie. And I don't like lies.
Yes, sometimes you're lucky enough to become the mask, but it's a mask nonetheless.
kioasakka Featured By Owner Oct 31, 2013
Thank you for trying to break the stigma. Suffering from depression myself. Finally decided to seek counseling and now I see a light at the end of the tunnel :) Beautiful poem.
Ayaka143 Featured By Owner Oct 31, 2013  Hobbyist Artist
i really like this one. i keep on rereading it. thank you :')
Starsieinwonderland Featured By Owner Oct 30, 2013  Student Artist
Sums it up!
artyor Featured By Owner Oct 30, 2013
that's just called being emo. poem is limited and bad
psychosquatch Featured By Owner Oct 12, 2014
I have suffered with depression for most of my life. I strongly identify with this poem. I generally dislike emo. Its not about having the balls to fight it. Sometimes there is no reason behind it whatsoever. Sometimes everything that claims to help only makes it worse, leaving only the option to fight it alone. That takes a lot more balls than you might think.
IHeartMusic20 Featured By Owner Oct 30, 2013  Student General Artist

If you're going to criticize, please do it in a constructive manner. Don't simply call the poem "bad," and don't put down the author and target audience by describing the behavior depicted as "emo." Explain what you mean by "limited." State what you think is wrong and offer a way to go about fixing it, and do it politely.

artyor Featured By Owner Oct 31, 2013
before I start, I will warn you that my english isnt so good, cause most of people who cant argue, say learn english.

Why wouldn't I just call it bad, if it is bad? Everyone who had read a good poem in life, will see how this poem is cheap and empty. That also, isnt the main problem. the real problem is that author trys to justifies her own emotional state, by lying to herself (and also people who read it), cause she thinks it's fine to be like that. she even looks like she is trying to define depresion, "depresion choose me blabla" oh shut it. that is called being emo, nothing more. I might be rude, but it's only my honest comment, that's it. Also by looking at this poem she put downs other who dont agree with this on provocation way "oh honey blabla". I also have comment about the author, but i will leave that for myself cause you and everyone else would say "you cant judge person just by that" .
IHeartMusic20 Featured By Owner Oct 31, 2013  Student General Artist

I didn't see this as trying to justify her depression. I took it to be addressing those who look down on people with depression - those who seem to think that it's just a bad mood that the victim is choosing not to fix. Those who suffer from depression really don't choose to be down all the time. It can be brought on by multiple factors in one's life, some more severe than others. I feel like this is what the author was trying to get across. I do, however, think it could have been done differently and more effectively.

I realize we simply have a difference in opinion. The reason I reacted so passionately to your comment is because of it's bluntness and closed-minded statement. My only wish is that if you disagree with the poem and feel the need to say so, do it in a way that might help the author improve rather than criticizing so harshly without giving a reason as to why you see it that way.

artyor Featured By Owner Nov 1, 2013
yea absolutely agree, suffering from depression can be brought on by multiple factors. but guess what? Poem says that she DOESNT know a resons/factors. If she doesnt know, who should know them? me, you? psychologist? Or maybe, she (when I say she I also think about people who support and find themselve in this poem) knows the resons, but she dont want to accept them, coz she knows those factors are wrong, or she is even too scared to deal with them. so she keep feeling depression caused by those factors, and act like it's not cause of it.

she seem like kind of people, who dont have social life, and rathe stay at home then go out with people and then say "we hate people, they s*ck. we are better than everyone". why they say that? oh right, coz they fear social life . then stop hating on people that you dont even know, and face your f*kin fears, otherwise you will be in depression for long time, and later ull be sad cause u spent one of best years of life in depression, for what? not having enough b*lls to fight your fear? I might sound like someone who doesnt have depression or bad days, I do, maybe even worst, maybe not that bad as this person, but I dont just cry about it, like this poem do. 

This also doesnt go for all people, someone might have real problem with depression, and cant slove it that easy, but that's something else.
IHeartMusic20 Featured By Owner Nov 1, 2013  Student General Artist

You sound like you've had experience with depression and I really like your attitude of fighting against it rather than accepting it. I just didn't feel like this author was whining or sulking about it. I don't want to get into it, though, because it's simply a different opinion than yours, and it would be pointless to argue about it.

I'm really not trying to argue with you. I'm glad you've explained your comment without getting too aggressive, and I understand better why you said it. It just came across as very harsh and unhelpful to me, and that's what I had a problem with. I think that for a lot of people suffering from depression, harsh and blunt comments hurt more than they help.

ApocalypticAngel4792 Featured By Owner Oct 30, 2013  Student Writer
Sometimes I think some of the people in my circle don't understand why I don't feel like getting up to go somewhere, even if I promised to go, or why I'd rather be asleep than face the world. Luckily my boyfriend doesn't really ask questions. I feel for him having to live with my moods sometimes, but I think he gets that it's not something I'm choosing to feel. I've thought of talking to him about it, just to know if I am driving him crazy, but I'm scared to in case he says the wrong thing. After reading this, I might make an effort to, just to see how well he does understand, and to work with him if he doesn't.
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JuliaEn Featured By Owner Oct 27, 2013  Student
damn... you're so f*ckin' right :( especially the last sentences... very good work! you almost made me cry, it's so touching. it's just awesome

i know just so well what you successfully! tried to discribe, so many of your texts are great

i just wanted to say that :)
Sorrows-Song Featured By Owner Oct 26, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you for understanding, and for putting yourself out there to listen to anyone who needs a hearing ear. Hug
anila73 Featured By Owner Oct 26, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you... your poems always make me a little happier :)
Irezumizero Featured By Owner Oct 26, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Finally, someone gave it words. 
I tried to tell my parents about why I felt the way I did and that I needed help when I was younger, they told me to just 'stop worrying so much,' and 'It's just stress, just don't think about the things that make you sad.' 
Of course, I couldn't really blame them, because they obviously didn't understand, so I gave up on that too. 
Thanks mate, maybe they won't ever understand, but at least, I know that these words make me feel somewhat sane.
Darkblack3-Mari Featured By Owner Oct 26, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
This is beautiful. I'm crying on my keyboard as I type, it's so hard not to feel alone when you suffer from depression. Things like this and people like you are what keeps me here and fighting. You give me strength. All I can do is say thank you, thank you for giving me even a little bit of hope back that my depression had taken away. *hugs*
BreeBree135 Featured By Owner Oct 25, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Couldn't have said it better myself.. :heart:
robodude2829 Featured By Owner Oct 25, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
"To feel sick to my stomach because I think too much" And that is me in a nutshell. Awesome poem. Thanks.
Darkheartedchick Featured By Owner Oct 25, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
From someone with Depression and an anxiety disorder, thankyou. 
It speaks a lot to those who just don't seem to understand. 
Personally, if anyone asks, I just say "yeah, I got depression. So what?" But for some of my friends with it? They can't do the same. They have been told (like I have numerous times) to "just be happy". I have the ability to tell them "do you go to a disabled person and say 'just walk'?"...but a lot of my friends can't do that.

So thankyou a lot.
From the one stuck in her bed,
Sesshomaru431 Featured By Owner Oct 25, 2013
Yah, describes my life right now.
flagsandmapsohmy Featured By Owner Oct 25, 2013
Wow! This reminds me of the time I was in a group for depression and was doing okay, I guess. Then a man came in who preached that we didn't have mental illness and were evil sinners going to hell.....I just got worse after that...I wonder what would have happened if he had never come along...but can they ban patients who try to "help" depressed people by threatening them with hell? I wish they could, but after all he was suffering, too.....
niceguy99 Featured By Owner Oct 25, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
if depression was a choice then I would simply chose not to be sad, but it's not that simple.
Phantom-Spectre Featured By Owner Oct 25, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
aw thanks!
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