You Only Have So MuchHer fingers are dirty,Her hair tangled.She's a mess, some would say.But at least her heart is pure.His wrists covered in scars,His stomach roaring with hunger.He's damaged, some would say.But at least his love is whole.Her breathing is heavy,And her skin is pale.She's dying, some would say.But at least she knows how to live.At least a woman without a houseKnows how to make a home.Hand her a loaf of bread,And she won't devour it,Because she knows how to treasureThe beauty in life.At least a boy without a smileKnows how to hold on,Longer than someone who's never fallen,And never dared to learnHow to fly.At least a girl in the mobile chairKnows how to capture a moment,Because she can't quite be sureHow many moments really areRemaining.At least someone with so littleCan appreciateAnd knowSo much.Because when you have so much...You only have so little.
Gun Within The MirrorIt feels as if my reflectionPoints a gun at its own head,As my bullet shoots the mirrorAnd paints the floor with red,And it feels as if my gunJust isn't steady in my hand,Because darling, when I jump off cliffs,Do you think I always land?It feels as if the razor bladeMight be my only friend,And it feels as if the broken glassMight soon begin to bend,Because my reflection is distorted, love.Can't you see that, love, can't you see?I'm pointing a gun at the mirror,And the mirror points back at me.
A letter to my watchersSmiling through your pain,Till the wounds stop bleeding.Running through your cloudsOnce the sky stops raining.Never saying never,Going faster, stronger, betterEven when theRaindrops seem to fall down forever.Till the birds start to sing, andHappiness overwhelms you,And a smile takes over your faceNow and eternally.Surviving through the pain,Until the wounds stopped bleeding.It never seemed it would end,Crying, screaming, dying...Indeed it did, itDied away..Even when the raindrops would never end.
His BallerinaA gown of silk, flowing as a stream,Her footsteps so gentle, perhaps she was a dream,As he crouches near bushes to glare at the unseen,And she danced like ballerina.Her fingers combed her golden hair,A perfect lady who didn't careTo see the man that would never dareTo touch a ballerina.But desire grew, and patience died,As a lovely girl danced before his eyes,So he buried his heart, pulled out a knife,And tickled the ballerina.She fought his hands, in fear of death,A dirty blade sinking through her chest,For he would never settle for something less,As she screamed,She cried,She took her final breath...And the wind grew calm, barely blowing on the stream.Her voice so quiet (perhaps it was a dream).As he closes his eyes, cradling his queen...His beautiful ballerina.
Maybe.Fist fights and battles in my headI'll always remember what you said...The day you lied.Glass shattered all over the dirtI'll always remember your last words...The day you died.I could have saved you, love.I should have saved you, love.I would have saved you, love...Then maybe we could both still beAlive.
Mama's EyesShe said to her daughter,"Goodnight."And her little girlNo longer littleLooked up in her mama's eyes,And said,"Goodbye."And Mama thought nothing of it,Till her little girlNo longer littleNever looked up in her mama's eyesAgain.
IdolizationIdolization is a strange and dangerous thing.Yet we all do it. Either aware or unaware.It all starts when we see an artist here whose work we like a lot.Most of us have been there. Seeing the work of an artists that hits a soft spot in you, for whatever reason that might be.You admire it, but at the same time you feel sad because you realize your level is still miles away from this artist, and you will probably never be able to do the same.But despite everything, you start following this person. And you keep following him.Because somewhere deep in your soul, you hold the believe --or rather, hope-- that when you watch it long enough, it will reveal it's tricks.That it will inspire you in some way. And that you'll be able to do the same.Unconsciously, we all build images of our idol.It's human nature, I guess. We fill in all the blanks. The things that we don't know from this person.Because an idol isn't a person anymore at that point. It has become an ico
Popular artists and arrogance: RantThis is somehing I've been wanting to write about since almost forever but I always forgot what exactly I wanted to say once I opened dA. Which I did now too, but I will try anyway because otherwise I'll never get to it. xDSo what I was wondering is, why is it that as soon as someone has a certain amount of watchers/pageviews/attention/whatever, that people suddenly start to assume they MUST be arrogant?I've seen this SO often before and it bothers me to no end. People don't even KNOW the artist personally, but they just randomly assume things about them. I've had a few people come up to me being all "wow I thought you'd be arrogant and all until I actually started to talk to you". Which, in some way, really surprised me. I don't really consider myself "popular". It doesn't feel like I am, I don't feel like I'm an artist a lot of people know. I feel like my watcher count is that high simply because I never moved accounts. A lot of those accounts are inactive now anyway.However.
Stuff on LGBT topics that I want to shareI think I'll make this journal here a journal where I share stuff related on homosexuality and possibly other orientations, as it catches my interest and I know some of my watchers are interested in this too.June 17, 2014:I found this documentary about homosexuality and Christianity/the Bible. It's about Christian people who had a homosexual kid or turned out to be homosexual themselves. It's one hour and a half long, but I found it interesting enough to share!June 15, 2014:I found this article on homosexual males raising a child, and I found it interesting because a lot of people question whether such couples are capable of that:http://www.smithsonianmag.com/smart-news/gay-men-experience-neurology-parenthood-both-straight-fathers-and-mothers-point-view-180951579/?no-istI found it rather interesting and felt like sharing it. The article does not mention whether this goes for female homosexuals too, but I thought it was worth sharing nonetheless!
Stronger than SuicideYou are so much stronger than suicide.You are so much more powerful than the cuts on your arm,And so much better than your eating disorder.So much more than your scars.Darling,Please look me in the eyes,And show me your wounds,Whether they be on your forearm,Your wrist,Your mind,Or your heart.Sweetheart,Have you been skipping meals?Have you been cutting?Well, here’s something for you to try.Think one thing,Just one thing,EverySingleDay.Just remember to prove to the world,That youAre stronger thanSuicide.
Dear Daddy, I hate you.Dad,There's something I want you to know,Because, hey dad..I'm not stupid.I know you're not going to be hereAnymore.Something I wanted to say..I hate you.I hate how you've been there for me.I hate how you made me who I am today.I hate how you've always inspired me,And I hate how you've been the best father anyone could ask for.I hate how I know you enough to know exactly what you're going to say.I hate how you know me the same way.I hate how you love your family more than anything.I hate how you've been strong just so we don't feel weak,And I hate how you never gave up on us.On your family.On your daughters.On me.I hate knowing that it's going to beOver.I'm going to miss you, Dad.... Daddy, I'm going to miss you.And I hate you for that.
Before you kill yourself...Before you kill yourself,Remember just one little thing.There are places to go,Where you have never been before.How can you be sure those places are bad?There are things to see,Things you have never seen before.How can you be sure those things are ugly?There is a new tune to hear,Something you've never heard before.How can you be sure that tune is scary?There are words to be said,Things that have never been said before.How can you be sure those words are hurtful?There are dreams to be imagined,Things you have never dreamed before.How can you be sure that they are nightmares?Darling, please don't give up.Please stay strong.And please.Don't let go.
Devious Journal EntryThis is something I posted on my tumblr ( http://unicornsandbandsandstuff.tumblr.com/post/101280786487/okay-so-this-is-something-im-really-proud-of-iv ), but I thought you guys might like to/benefit from reading this too:Okay, so this is something I’m really proud of. I haven’t engaged in any harmful activities in a week! I’ve been an on-off self-harmer (mainly cutting, but sometimes burning too) for over three years; I started precisely a week after my fourteenth birthday, and I am now seventeen. I have issues with anxiety, and when I was fifteen I lost my mother to cancer, who had been in-and-out of hospital since I was eleven. It was quite a frightening way to spend the first half of my teenage years, going to the hospital to visit her every day after school and at weekends. Unsurprisingly, at fourteen I just snapped and sliced myself up. The habit stuck and, at fifteen, I took it a step further; a couple of months after my mother passed away, I tried to kill
it's ~NOT~ a complimentCan I reiterate that?NOT. A. COMPLIMENT.God damn, it's not the 50's.Putting your hands on a stranger because you like they way they look is NOT A COMPLIMENT. Some random ignorant filthy street flotsam decided that it would be a good idea to let me know he liked the way I looked by smacking my ass. He unleashed from me a tirade of profanity that will echo down market street well into the future. I even got strangers to turn around and watch, which is a great feat considering all the bs that goes down on that cesspit of a street, most of which generally gets ignored. I don't see how it computes that 'hey she looks nice' = 'hey it's ok to touch her'??? What part of the mind has to short circuit to think that's ok?? Look with your eyes, think with your mind, and LEAVE THAT PERSON ALONE. Didn't they teach that in the third grade?? FFS. He seemed surprised that I reacted the way I did.I screamed at him that it's not ok
Issue Three of Modern Day Fairytales is OUT!Hello everyone! A quick update to let you all know that Issue Three of MDF is out and features some of the most brilliant writers on dA and outside of dA! Here are some of their biographies to read!Kim Peter Kovac loves telling stories - on stage with plays for young audiences, on the page with poems, prose poems, creative non-fiction, mostly for adults. Chen Yuan Wen rose from the streets, so he could write in the skies. On deviantart, he is known as WordofChen.Matthew "Crash" has been creative writing for the past nine years. He began writing punk music lyrics in at the age of fifteen and has developed several interests in creative writing including two books (in progress), a television comedy (in progress), electronic music/lyrics and poetry. On deviantart, he is known as RejectedSavior.NEW CATEGORYAnd finally to ce
Draw My Pony Oc Contest! (closed!!) My Contest Is Now Closed!!! Thank You Soo Much To All Thoes Who Entered!! It Means The World To Me! The Results Should Be Up Tomorrow. October 7Th. PLEASE If You Don't Win, DO NOT FEEL BAD!! It Will Be Soo Hard To Choose!! So Please Don't Feel Bad! Of You Do Not Win, Later On, I MIGHT open Art Trades And Maybe We Can Do One Later. Thank You All So Much Again!! <3333 EDIT 4: okay, Some Of You Said You'd Enter My Contest But You Haven't And You Haven't Let Me Know Other Wise. So YouhHave Till 12 Noon To Enter, Then I'm Closing My Contest! Thank You Soo Much To Thoes Who Said They'd Enter And Did!! For Thoes Who Have Said They'd Enter And Did Not, Please Try And Let Me Know If You Can't. So I Know! Thank You!! Edit 3: I'm Giving You One More Whole Day Left To Enter!!! It Will End The Morning Of The 6Th!! So Hurry Up Everyone!! <3333 ^_^Edit 2: I've Extended The Contest Until October Fifth. It Will End At 12 Noon My Time! Please Submit Your Entries Really So
~Vanilli Ice~ Drawing ContestI'm hosting a contest.:iconambercatlucky2::icondorzel:UvUAnd you all must can enter. For this contest you must draw Chocolate Strawberri Vanilli Breezii (Nicknames/shortforms: CSVB, Strawberri, Vanilli, Latte, Bree) AND Ice Luck.These two are a couple, and you MUST draw them together.Here are some reference images of them.//they have kids now// but they're not required in this contest.You can find their information on their reference sheet, but here's their information (as well as some expansion to it) on here.Ice LuckIce Luck belongs to my amazingly wonderful boyfriend :iconDorzel:Name: Ice LuckAge: 19Birthday: May 28thFavourite Colour:
Featuring Writing that Moves MeI have spent so much time on deviantart lately, and partly because I have discovered some really stunning work on here. I thought that I may share a few of these gems I have discovered today in this feature. The Rules of Flying by Epicaracacy Cosmic Symphony by LadyofGaerdon Everything I Needed To Know by chromeantennae :thumb390286003: She is the Rain by SammieOCeallaighIt is 9 in the afternoon by DearPoetry the gospel of two am by 0hgravity The Woman in White by Medoriko On Wanting Everything to Be Right by glossolalias :thumb391754773::thumb387685002: :thumb391212478: Constellations of scars by toxic--sunrise :thumb386999357: on growing up by rachel-rhapsodyI hope you enjoy them as much as I have.
Name Generator CommentsSince there's a few people wondering about the special names that get a unique comment in my pony name generator, I'm posting up this list.Special Comments:These ones are only given for specific names. Many of them are references to other things.Twilight Sparkle->I'm pretty sure that one is taken.Rainbow Dash->omigoshomigoshomigoshomigoshFlutter Shy->It says here... "eep."Pinkie Pie->"Never leaves home without her party cannon"Apple Jack->I haven't seen her around much lately...Apple Bloom->"Cutie mark crusader pony namers." I guess that explains that last one.Scoota loo->It says "Rainbow Dash is cool" here.Sweetie Belle->I really like her mane.Morning Star->Huh. This one is being used... (See: http://nimbostratus.deviantart.com/art/Morning-Star-318225552 )Lance Guard->Huh. This one is being used... (See: http://nimbostratus.deviantart.com/art/Lady-Lanceguard-318222659)Blazing Saddle->"He rode a blazing saddle,
!!Feature The Artists #2 (CLOSED)!!I decided I haven't done this in a while so why not. RULES (Plz read)ONLY 10 will be featured that means No ComplainingI will choose the 10 and 2 art pieces to be featured it's not first in first serve this time.Comment Below.Lastly fav this Journal.*Have you Both Faved and Commented?*(You must Fav and comment if you wish to be eligible)That's it good luck to you all yummystrfry123neshirys ERRORAkumaChan ArtistOnHold
FeaturesI just wanted to take some time to share some lovely works I have read on here. It was a rainy day today, and I had a cup of hot cocoa, this was the loveliest way to spend the afternoon. Thank you, all you lovely poets! War by WeirdAndLovely*Lost in Love* by Delice1941a poem on the inner workings of my chaotic mind by PrussianPersephonePart of being Human: by Lawli-Artsheepskin by Nullibicity
( OFFICIALLY CLOSED )CONTEST TIME!THANK YOU TO ALL WHO ENTERED! THIS CONTEST! THE CONTEST HAS NOW ENDED, PLEASE SUBMIT YOUR VOTIES BY NOTE, ALONG WITH W DESCRIPTION OF WHAT YOU LIKED ABOUT THE ARTWORK YOU ARE VOTING FOR, AND WHY YOU HAVE VOTED FOR IT. YOU MAY ONLY VOTE ONCE, AND YOU CANNOT VOTE FOR YOURSELF. PLEASE ALSO INCLUDE WHETHER OR NOT YOU WOULD LIKE YOUR FEEDBACK DISPLAYED AT THE END OF THE JUDGING PERIOD WHEN THE WINNERS ARE ANNOUNCED. YOU CAN CHOOSE TO HAVE YOUR NAME BESIDE THE FEEDBACK, STAY ANONYMOUS, OR NOT HAVE IT POSTED AT ALL. PLEASE VOTE WITHIN THE NEXT WEEK. PLEASE NOTE THAT THIS IS JUST OPTIONAL BECAUSE I WANT TO KNOW WHAT PEOPLE CHOOSE. THE ENTRY WITH THE MOST VOTES DOES NOT WIN. NO. THIS IS JUST TO HELP ME WHEN I MAKE THE BIG DECISION.UPDATE: 16/5/14I have added more prizes, and winners.PLEASE SHARE THIS JOURNAL AROUND SO THAT THIS GETS NOTICED.UPDATE: TWO FIRST, SECOND AND THIRD PRIZES WILL BE AWARDED!-----------------Alright, I know how much you all love
Resources/Advice-Stuff to Listen to While DrawingThis is a series of journals that I've wanted to make for a while, just to document all the things that have been of use to me and might be of use to others. No one has to read these, though! These can just sit here for future reference if anyone needs them.Audio Books: Audio books are one of my favorite things to listen to while drawing! They are several hours long and—if the book is interesting—they will keep you motivated and focused for long periods of times.My favorite Audio versions of books are: 1) ANYTHING by Jon Acuff because he is a hilarious person and he reads the books himself, 2) The Lunar Chronicles, 3) The Hunger Games, 4) The Everlasting Man (Narrator: John Robbins), 5) Orthodoxy (Narrator: Simon Vance), and 5) Mere Christianity (Narrator: Geoffrey Howard).Those are my favorite audio versions of books. I like their readers a lot. There are other books I like that didn't have great adaptations (Cheesy 90's background music! ) or that I can't listen to f
My Little Pony Secret Santa! (Closed! PLEASE READ) EDIT!: To Thoes Of You Who Have Entered, I've Noticed Some Of You Still Haven't Done A Journal With Who You'd Want Your Secret Santa To Draw. Please Check And Make Sure You've Favorited This Journal AND made A Journal With Who You'd Want And Link It To THIS JOURNAL. it's Very, Very Important!! <33 It Will Make Things Alot Easier! Later, I Will Do A Journal With The Participants. I'll Number You All And Put Your Journal By Your Name. I've Always Been Wanting To Host A Secret Santa Event. So This Year, I Thought Id Hold S My Little Pony One! <33The Point Of It Is To Be Matched Up With A Person From Random Number Generator. And For That Person, You Draw Them A Pony Drawing Of Anything That Person Wants. But Since This Is A Mlp Secret Santa, You Have To Draw Them Something Pony Related. And No One Will Know Who They Will Get! It Will Be A Surprise For Christmas! <33I Will Match You All Up Myself! And To Enter, All You Have To Do Is Fave This Journal, Make A Jo
I wrote this song... It's basically for you guys, so if you wanna take a look, go ahead <3 Love you all so much!!Stay strong!